"Alix! Wake up!"
I looked over to see Daani crying and then I nugded her with cofusion evident in my eyes.She didn't look up and I mouthed to her: WHATS WRONG? WHAT HAPPENED?
" Why didn't you wake up! You aren't breathing! Even though I know that your pills don't help with your insomnia as well as they should they made you stop breathing! 3 times! And you have blood pooling around you and now I find ou that you have been cutting! WHY ALEXZANDRIA!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!"
Then she started to weep and i tried to comfort her but she didn't seem to notice my hand on her shoulder............
"why did you have to die?.........."
I woke up gasping for breath and tears seemed to be falling down my face in streams and I looked down and saw that my sheets were stained in blood. My dress smelled metalic so I stripped out of it and just stood there next to my bunk and looked at my bloody hips and forearm. I creeped over to my bag and pulled out my black yoga pants and a BLOOD ON THE DANCE FLOOR T-Shirt. Silently I walked to the shower and turned it on.
The water was cold at first but then it warmed up so i took off my black and red bra and panties set and stoood under the water. The dried blood started to soak up the water and become a liquid again so it streamed down my legs mixing with the fresh blood that had started to pour out of the injuries. I knew that it would hurt later but I quicly washed my whole body with my peppermint body wash and then washed and conditioned my hair with my mint extract and lavender scented shampoo and conditioner.
The tingling feeling that I always felt after using any mint product meant to cleanse the body/hair spread slowly through me and i silently sighed in contnentment.. I turned the water off after I shaved my legs and armpits ,because, well obviously if you ar going to perform in front of other people you don't want them to think that you have bad hygine. I got out and didn't even bother with drying off. I just put my bra back on and put on my yoga pants and BOTDF shirt.I bandaged my arms and my hips then put on my running arm sleeves on to hide my bandages.
I walked into the "Living Room" and turned on the wii that we had installed. I pulled out the Wii Fit board and turned my Ipod on to my Death Playlist. It consisted of Disturbed, KORN, Slipknot, GODSMACK, Atreyu, Five Finger Death Punch, Drowning Pool, Breaking Benjamin, Bullet for my Valentine, DOPE, 3 days Grace, Static-X, Sonic Syndicate, Stone Sour, Device, In Flames, Skillet, Trivium, All That Remains, System Of A Down....etc. I did some ryhthm boxing for about 2 hours and then everyone else woke up. Daani looked at me and didnt seem to notice my arms were covered and smiled.
"Hey Alix! How did you sleep?"
I shook my head and a flash of her crying face and the last line she said in my nightmare ran through my head.
"why did you have to die?............."
I shuddered and mouthed to her quickly " I had the worst nightmare ever so i am not taking these meds. ever again"
She nodded and then i went back to boxing. After another hour everyone had woken up and had their coffee and dhad gotten dressed in exercise clothes. When we had gotten to the next venue our managers Eddie and Shane stepped into the bus.
"Hey guys ok so the closest gym is 3 miles away. Do you guys want to walk or be driven?"
Everyone else but me said drive but they always do that. Even none of us looked like it we all were physically fit in one way or another. Daani had great abs and legs but she was working on her arms. Rachel and Jasper both were good withthe arms and legs but their abs and cores needed some work. Hairi had good legs and abs and her arms were okay but they could improve. I had good legs and and core. My arms were ok but that was just how my body made me look. I could bench 300 lbs. when i was trying but i cant hold it for very long and my sets are very small whe i get to the 300's. I usually ran on the tredmills though and then did some pull ups and some curl ups.I packed a small bag with extra clothes and badandages and grabbed an extra pair of shoes. (Combat boots.)
