Demon

.iv.

"Love me like my demons do."

-Akif  Kichloo

*2.20pm*
"Sojourner." Ja and Karta often call me.

I suspect it as I'd frequently call myself a "temporary inhabitant of this vessel" as I tend to think of myself leaving this earth more often than the future I have on it.

"What's up, twins?"

Instinctively reaching their mind pockets for the eye roll. They hated being called twins. So I loved calling them twins. It toughened us up for the future encounters with the assholes in our lives.

We have a spot we love to go to but there's always a plan B, C, D... . This was our favorite though and far from our homes. Whenever we have holidays or we're all going through some tough times, we head over to The Ritz. A quaint, little abandoned home. I can't say where or I'd lose the little bit of peace that we share.

It's an antique looking house, tattered curtains, shattered and dust drenched windows that revealed some of the mystery of this unknown world; it's beautiful. All behind a chest high brick wall that was fenced by dandelions and yards of straw.

JaJa drove us here in their jeep. I know a bit flashy but it was a scrap car him and his brother fixed up and got looking good. Real good if you ask me. It's something they knew they'd have to do on their own. He never gave them anything but "food, water, clothes, an education and a roof over your heads!" He barely gave them an allowance. Talk about a tight grip.
They were always self reliant. Especially with a brick wall of a father. I wonder how their kind mother deals with it all.

"Let's get going to the attic." Our favorite spot. We even had our own supplies up there. We could hide the fact that the house had an attic so that was a plus. We took up their mattresses and got some old bedsheets from a thrift store and got the place cleaned up. We got a brush to sweap up, a  bucket that I fill with water every time we chill and have drinks and hang an old rag on the side of.

It's like a little home. Our little home.

The best part about it is the beautiful arch window that lets all the transcendent light into the attic from an angle no one can see us from.
"Gosh, I need a break." I say laying on the bed. "Could you roll this time, JaKarta?"

"Sure, Sojourner." As he starts up and JaJa pulls out his portable speaker that does quite the job for a petite speaker that fits into his pocket.

I hum along to "Arabella" as I start lighting up a black cigarette, passing on the lighter to JaJa.

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*4.40 pm*

For what felt like forever I was hovering over my mattress as the boys lay on theirs. Staring off into the peachy-orange sky, birds flocking and clouds morphing and warping into one.
[Like a beautiful...]

*crunch*

[... beautiful dance, ritual like they were glad to meet each other ag- ]

*crunch.. crunch..*

There was a familiar scent in the air that emerged out of the fog of our emissions.

There was a noisy, 'Crunch. Crunch. Crunch.' Followed by a dramatic slurp. Near Ja..

"The fu-"

"Oh! Fuck, I totally forgot." Karta came flying over the both of us straight to the stash of food we bring.

You know... For the munchies.

"NO WAY. And you didn't even tell us, Ja. You Asshole." in my dazzy  voice.

"Huh?" He looked at me with a wing protruding out of the of his mouth.

"Nvm. Karta, Toss me- " and right in my face was my bag of hot wings. I was fortunate to have him hand me my drink this time.

[The little manners these boys have.] As I burp.

"Nice!" They say in unison.

"Thaaanks." I say.

We always watch something as we eat when we're like this. It was my turn and I got all the episodes on Steven Universe but just decided to play the first 8 'cause there's a curfew at the gate where we live. 

[UGH, rules suck.]

I brought the episodes on my phone and we had a strategy for when we don't have a big enough screen to sit normally. I would lay on both the boys as they lay in there tummies side by side.

"Oooh the pyramid.." I mention.

Jaja hates it. The last time we all fell asleep and had to beg our way into our home because we got super comfy. The best part is getting the best view in the house. Not too far from the phone and not too close either. Though I wasn't feeling the pyramid today. So I decided to sit on Jakarta and we tilted our heads to watch.

I always think to myself, that we're really outrageous.

[Practically squating in an abandoned home and making it our little home is quite insane!]

Lord knows how many awful situations have gone through my head about us being here.
Not to mention the anxiety Karta had first time around. I couldn't bare to see him lose his shit if we ever lost this place or, God forbid, something terrible goes down here. He's a big, strong guy. They both are. Though fear can turn the biggest giants into a shivering, broken mess. I have my moments too, but nothing like Karta.

I must have been in deep thought as Jakarta slightly nudges me and glares at me from the side and mouths the words, "Are. You. Okay?"

With a whisper I say, I'm fine. Why?"

He points at my arms that were strangling his and gently brushes his thumb down my furrowed eyebrows.

I hadn't even realised I was showing signs of my fear and great concerns outwardly. My grip on his arm loosened and the furrow on my brows slowly faded. 

"Oh. Sorry. I was thinking too much... stupid me. Hey guys, we best be heading home."

*open in separate tab or download and listen*
         Weslee-

Heading out, I ask Ja to take the long route, using the high-way so I could think.

I needed it.
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Letting off some steam and just going along with the breeze rushing against me as I stood up in the jeep was all I needed. It hushed all the unnecessary demons in my head and I could just... think.

[I hate when these doubts just randomly fill my head. Like FUCK! OUT OF NOWHERE. I used to be able to see it coming or at least hide it. I need to fix this.. I need to fix me.]

"Especially with Coda being around now."

"Huh? What was that?" Asked Jaja.

"Oh, nothing. Just thinking aloud.."

Exchanging almost stunned looks with Karta. Jaja pulls the car to the side of the road, reached up to tap my thigh and signal me down.

"We need to talk, Sky."

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Author's Notes*
Hey, not my best but I'm just getting back into the gift of writing. I will definitely be updating more often. Forgive me.

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