Loving A Thug Or Nah ❤️

Chapter 14: What If

Rhea;

I laid there, thinking about what we had said about BeeBee... what if he feels the same about me? It's just the sex that's keeping him around? I don't know, what I'd do.. I mean, I think I'm pregnant. But we only had sex twice. But my dad always said, it only takes one time to have sex, and you end up pregnant. I mean, I wouldn't mind having his baby. It's just that, I don't want to have his child and he leaves me or something happens too him. Then, I'll be just like my mother, and I refuse to be anything like my mother. So my only option is too... too... I can't even say it. I absolutely hate myself, but I gotta' do what I gotta' do.

"Langston..." My voice cracked a little.

"Yes? What's wrong?" He asked.

"Can I ask a hypothetical question?" I asked.

"Everybody knows a hypothetical question, is always the actual question you want to ask" Langston replied. I sighed, he was right.

"Never mind then..." I changed my mind.

"No, go ahead," He demanded. I sighed.

"What if... I um, I-"

"Just say it" He began getting irritated.

"If I was ever pregnant... by you, would you be upset if I terminated it?" I asked.

"I mean, would you want too?" He asked, turning his head my way.

"I don't know," I shrugged.

"You pregnant?" He asked calmly, sitting up. I shrugged slowly, and sniffed meaning I was about to cry. He grabbed me by my waist and sat me on his lap.

"Don't cry, okay? It's not that bad" He tried to comfort me, as he rubbed my back.

"I can't have a kid"

"Look, we don't even know for sure, we can go to the clinic tomorrow, and find out... and if you are pregnant we'll take it from there... but I don't want you to get an abortion... we can work it out, I mean I work, so we're good" Langston tried looking on the bright side.

"But-"

"No buts.." He cut me off. I got off of his lap and crawled into his bed.

"You don't have to be home?" Langston asked me.

"No, Lance knows where I'm at" I replied. Langston got up and cut off the lights in the room, and pulled me to face him.

"What are we?" I asked.

"What do you mean?" Langston asked.

"Like... are we friends? Are we together?" I asked uneasily.

"Together" He stated, and kissed me gently.

ufffff <3

[ The Next Morning ]

Langston and I were sitting in the doctor's office of the clinic, waiting for my results. I was so nervous I was shaking a little.

"Calm down" Langston tried to comfort me.

"I'm trying..." I replied. I honestly was, but it was hard. The door had opened, and our doctor walked in.

"Well, your results were negative... but I do have some bad news" She stated.

"Well, what is it?" I asked.

"You're infertile, I'm sorry... but you'll never be able to naturally conceive a child" She informed me. That was like a stab to the heart.

"But, don't worry. There are a lot of ways you can have a child when you're ready" she tried to reassure me.

"No, i-it's fine. Thanks anyways" I got down off of the table, and walked out of the room. Langston called after me, but I didn't answer. I just went straight to the car... I can't have a child? I can't have a child! Tears began to flow, I can't believe this. Langston got in the car, and I looked away, as I sign that I didn't want to talk at the moment.

When we got to his house, I ran up the stairs past Julian, and locked myself in Langston's bathroom.

"Rhea, come out..." Langston knocked.

"No, leave me alone, Langston" I sniffed, and wiped away a few tears.

"Rhea, please.." He pleaded. I was in no mood to argue, so I wiped my face and walked out the bathroom. I tried to not cry, but it seemed impossible. Langston held me, as I buried my face in his shoulder, and let the tears flow.