PETALS

Past

I wake up in purple, with blankets of grey
This is where I lay
Wake up and seek out
The feelings I have strayed
Although one is always left out
A feeling of being afraid
For I walked on a grave
My name etched in stone
I used to cry all day
Screaming when alone
For I etched tears in my skin
There to stay forever
The scars showed my sin
I never knew I'd end up flipping that lever,
For a new life of better
They're here to stay
But they mark every grave
Of the the past me
Who was to coward to be free
Now I look with regret
A past I can never forget
An old me I can never hide
Damn I wish I never cried
I wish I left the razor behind
I wish I wasn't so blind
I wish I didn't ignore the signs
I wish I didn't place the metal in me
I wish the scars would disappear
So that my mind could be clear
So that the old me can finally rest in peace
As if she were never there in the first place
Cause I'm tired of remembering when she tried to kill herself
In that cold empty space