Now and Forever- Jazel

In Sicknes and In Health

*Hazels POV*
Well fuck, it's 9pm, and I am currently sat on the toilet lid, head in hands, waiting for a very Long three minutes to be over so that I can look at a plastic stick that holds information that will change my life forever. I have always dreamt of having a baby with the man i love, but in this moment it doesn't feel much like the dreams did, in the dreams I felt so wonderfully happy and comfortable i was sat in the arms of my husband in a doctors surgery when we found out the big news, whereas in reality I'm scared and holding back the urge to vomit all over the floor while sat in the bathroom, alone, while my husband, the one and only Jack Howard, is sat watching Back To The Future with no idea that i am in here discovering OUR future.

"Hazel where are you"

i can hear the husky voice of an obviously very tired Jack followed by footsteps coming towards our bedroom, in a sudden panic i turn on the shower and pretend not to have heard him, as if to spite me at the very moment that the water hit the bottom of the shower my phone alarm went off on full volume alerting Jack. i stood against the sink, frozen to the spot staring at myself in the mirror as i heard the door handle shake behind me. i fought off the urge to turn around and lock the door, i felt like my heart was in my mouth as i realised that the pregnancy test was still lying face down in the sink in front of me. i didn't have time too look at it and move it before Jack entered the room, so i made the STUPID decision to leave it exactly where it is and continue to not move. Jack stumbled into the bathroom and wrapped his arms around my waist, but for the first time ever, it didn't comfort me, he rested his chin on my shoulder and looked into the mirror, straight into my eye, i tried to hide everything i was feeling but Jack knows me better than anyone, he knew that something was wrong straight away, however he knew better than to come out and ask me, but Jack being Jack couldn't stay quite for any more than a minute at a time,

"I only came in because i heard the shower running, why are you still wearing clothes"

I know Jack was just trying to make me smile however it had the opposite effect, unfortunately, for some reason out of my control i started to sob, the sobbing was quickly followed by a wave of nausea which resulted in me lungeing towards the toilet to throw up. Jack rushed to my side, held back my hair and rubbed my back

"Hazel whats going on, please babe are you okay?"

I still hadn't looked at the test myself but my body reacted before my brain did and i found myself just pointing towards the sink,

"i haven't looked myself yet Jack, please just tell me"

i watched Jacks eyes widen as he saw the test in the sink, he warily reached towards it and turned it over, my palms were sweaty and i felt as if i couldn't breath

"one line means positive, please Jack just tell me"

"one line" was all that Jack could bring himself to say

"Jack im so sorry, please dont hate me"

"How? When?"

"Well we did just have an entire honey moon and we both consumed a lot of alcohol, maybe we just....forgot"

Suddenly Jack dropped to the floor beside me and surrounded me with a warm hug, i clung onto him as if it was the last hug i would ever get.

"For the record Hazel, i don't hate you, i never could and never will, i love you with all of my heart and even though this wasn't exactly planned we will get through it together. I love you"

"I love you too"

For the first time all evening i felt safe and comfortable, this may not have been the way it happened in my dreams but part of me is glad about that, the dreams were so predictable. all i needed to know was that Jack is going to help me through this time of high emotion and going to stay by my side, always.

As my wave of nausea left me i decided to return Jacks earlier smart ass comment,

"Jack'

"yeah babe"

"You touched the end i peed on"

A/N-this is probably really crap but its just the start and i promise i have better ideas for chapters to come, i just needed to start it off! Hope you enjoyed it, JadeX (Like, Comment and all that shit, thanks)