Own you

Chapter 3

*Nahla's POV*

As I ate I felt his gaze on me. It literally took all of my strength not to look back at him. I couldn't give in. I was not going to believe this bullshit about soul mates, moon goddesses, love at first sight. The feelings I had didn't feel like love. They felt like I had a horrible drug addiction and I just went cold turkey.

I wanted to breathe his air, to touch his skin, to feel his body against mine and that scared me. I needed to end this quick because I could feel him taking over my thoughts. Now I see why my mom feels so empty without my father, because if it's anything like me and Nikolaj's bond it feels like he is apart of me.

I ate quickly and then knew I had to make an announcement. I stood up from my chair, all eyes were then glued to me.

" I am Alpha Nahla of Red Sun, as most of you have never met me before I want to personally welcome you to my pack. I know a woman has never been an alpha before but I promise you, don't mistake my gender for weakness because if so it will be the last thing you do. This feast is in your honor silent dawn, you have seen hard times in the last few days. Wolves from blood claw and silver moon have infiltrated your lands, slaughtered and stole your people and ran you from your homes. Even though it wasn't my pack attacked, this is not something I take lightly. Let it be know we will seek revenge and get back what is yours. We are wolves, it takes more than that to extinguish us. Our packs will stand together united and will face then again but this time we'll be ready. So this feast is to you Silent dawn, tonight we remember those you've lost yesterday, but we will train for the lives we can save tomorrow." They applauded and I raised my cup, the other wolves followed.

I took a sip and they all followed and then I told them to resume feasting. I had practically finished my meal and I knew it was time to call today a wrap. I was tired and I wanted nothing more than to get lost in the sheets of my bed.
I excused myself from my seat and headed to my house when I felt someone following me. I caught his scent and also I could just feel his presence.

"Why are you following me?" I asked and Nikolaj jogged next to me. "I actually have no answer to that. I just started walking when you did." He replied. I sped up and he did the same and then I just stopped. "I know it's hard to keep your distance but this is ridiculous. That's it! tomorrow we are going to elder Reina first thing in the morning. This has to end now!" I said and he nodded.

"What is she really going to help us with?" He questioned.

"Anything, how to break this mate bond. Or maybe how NOT to see through each other eyes. Even make it somewhat bearable for me to stand around you without being completely lost in the thoughts of you!" I said and my eyes widened at what I just revealed to him. His eyes grew wide to.

"Oh so I'm not the only one having these thoughts?" He asked.

" a mate bond goes both ways. I guarantee however you've been feeling I've been feeling exactly the same.....and I absolutely hate it. So stay away from me until we see Elder Reina.
I can't focus with you around." I said and stormed off to my room.

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I woke up in the morning rather abruptly. I felt like my body was on fire. I knew exactly what this meant. I was close to being in heat.

Heat was a time in a female wolves life when her body is desperate to mate with their mate. Being that I've never had a mate I have never been in heat before, but I knew what my body was telling me. My mom told me she knew when she was going to be in heat because she would wake up drenched in sweat.

She said it would happen sometimes a week before her heat, and sometimes a month. I hoped I had a month because last thing I needed was for my wolf to be in crazy sex drive when it was hard enough not letting her mate with Nikolaj now.