Forbidden Love

Forbidden Love: Chapter 4

Chapter 4

That next morning I had to drag myself out of bed. My head was throbbing and my throat was dry. I grabbed my stash of paracetamol from my bed side drawer, taking two in an attempt to dull my headache.

The thought of going to school wasn't helping my headache at all.

Knowing I had to see Parker today didn't help either.

I'd decided that today was going to be lazy day at school so instead of dressing up I pulled on a pair of joggers and a top. My hair was then pulled up into a high pony tail. Makeup was a huge no today so instead of fully coating my face; I simply just covered the bags under my eyes and the acne on my cheeks and forehead that refused to go away no matter what medication I tried.

Maybe today wasn't the best day to be going to school. But it was my last year and I knew that I needed to go, I had to finish school. I couldn't get into the field of work that I wanted to if I didn't have the qualifications that I needed. I needed to pass my final year.

Every morning after I drank, I instantly regretted it. At the time, it was so worth it and I would be enjoying myself so much. But then, I'd wake up and suddenly, it wasn't so great anymore and I would spend ages wondering why I had drank in the first place.

And then...I'd repeat the same actions and drink again. No matter how many times I said that I wouldn't. To be fair though, I think every single person who drinks says the exact same thing.

"Amelia! You're going to be late!" Mum screamed up the stairs. Judging by the tone of her voice, I had a feeling that that was most certainly not the first time that she had called up the stairs for me.

I grabbed everything that I might need for the rest of the day and headed down the stairs before my mother murdered me in my sleep. Ok, slight exaggeration there. But still, she would be majorly pissed with me and to be honest, I wasn't prepared to deal with any arguments with her.

Instead of grabbing breakfast, I decided on just grabbing a Nature Valley Peanut bar and then I was off. I walked to school today after I declined a lift of my mother. I wasn't running late today and I figured that walking would give me time to clear my head. And my hangover.

My mind was all over the place. Every thought I had automatically seemed to go back to Parker.

I knew that things shouldn't have changed after that night, but it felt like it had. We'd had no communication or connection towards each other for years prior to that. It was a simple slip up and now it was constantly messing with my mind.

Things were awkward now and every time I looked at him I knew that I would remember what had happened. There wasn't really any denying it considering he was my first.

I was pretty sure that things would go back to normal in time. Then we could go back to how we had been before all of this happened. Total strangers.

Right now, I didn't know how I felt about that.

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Successfully, I had made it to break time without seeing Parker. All in all, I was glad that we had yet to run into each other because I didn't know how to react.

Now though, I knew I had no chance but to see him since we were in the same English class... and I had that after break. We only had a fifteen minute break, which although a small period of time, still ensured that I had plenty of time to bump into Parker. So for that, I was extremely grateful that I didn't.

"Nervous?" Jenna asked as we headed down the stairs towards the English department. Break time had just finished and we'd grabbed our belongings from our lockers before making our way to class.