Mental?

Chapter One

Dark

Cold

Painless

Those are some words to describe how I feel right now, but isn't this what I wanted to not feel anything to not be alive. A lot of people would be scared but i'm not, i'm calm and finally at peace. People say that when you die you go to heaven but not me I think we stay just floating around until our spirit claims another body and is ready to be re-born. But i'm just glad that i'm finally at peace I don't care how long it takes for my soul t find another body if i get to stay at pea-....

beep..

beep..

What is that sound?

beep..

beep..

No, please don't let it be what I think it is. But sure enough I heard people talking which meant I was alive which also meant that the noise I just heard was my heart monitor meaning I am still alive and did not succeed. I try to stay as still as I could but its like my fate has gone against my wishes again and somehow without me wanting it to happen my hand moved, well more like twitched.

"Elena? Baby please don't let this be a dream.." I heard the most beautiful voice of the one person that i love in this world the one person that I actually trusted, and that is my boyfriend.

My hand twitches again and i hear the shuffling of feet and then i heard large and heavy foot steps and in no time I felt a hand in mine. Twitching again I feel his hand tighten around mine.

"Ty," I groaned out his name my voice sounding like I haven't used it in years.

"It's me, I'm here baby." he told me and I felt lips on my forehead. Then I felt cold as he left my side but I heard his foot steps and then someone shouting something and then just like that i was out again.

I was back to feeling numb and succumbed to the darkness. Welcoming it with open arms I relax.

2 days later

Beep

That annoying sound came back which meant I was still alive, trying to move my fingers I notice that my fingers are easier to move this time. So I try to open my eyes and succeed but close them right away because of the light. After blinking a couple of times I look around and spot Ty on the chair beside my bed sleeping.

Not wanting to wake him I look around and notice that I had wires connected to me. Unhooking all of the wires and taking out my IV, I get out of bed and look around noticing a door to the left I walked over to it and saw that it was a bathroom. I walk in and look at myself seeing that I have black bags under my eyes, my face pale and oily. Looking around I notice a wash cloth and a brand new tooth brush and tooth paste in their packaging. Taking the was cloth I turn the water to warm and get the wash cloth wet. Starting to wash my face I hear shuffling by the door so I look over and notice that Ty was standing there and looking relived and down at the white gauze that's on my wrist. Ignoring him I wash my face sighing at the content that I got knowing my face was no longer oily.

Taking the toothbrush out of the package I run it under water and put tooth paste on it and rinse it again then I brush my teeth, when I hear a sigh I look up and see Ty standing there with an impatient look getting irritated. Shrugging my shoulders I finish up and go back to the room and sat down on the bed.
"Look, I love you but..." he says walking into the room also and sitting back in his chair.
"But, what?" I asked getting scared because e has never done anything like this.
"But I can't do this , it was hell watching you lay on this bed lifeless so I thing its best of we go our separate ways."  He said looking down at his feet.
"Wow nice way to tell me you know considering I just woke up." I said with my voice stone cold and glaring at him.

"I'm sorry I just can't have this kind of thing in my life I thought I could help you but I guess I was wrong." He said his knee shaking a little and his hands getting clammy.
"Wow okay you can leave now.." I tell him looking away trying to keep the tears at bay.
"I still want to be there for you don't do this don't push me away!" He said looking desperate.
"I'm not your the one who gave up, so please leave I can't stand the look on your face." I told him my voice staying at that ice coldness.
Hearing him sigh and foot steps I watch him, his back facing me as he leaves. As soon as the door closes I finally let it all go and start to ball not being able to handle how much pain he put me through. Turning over on my side I pull my stiff white blankets up to my neck and cry into my pillow, falling asleep as I do; hoping to never wake up to see another day and live with this pain. With that thought my eyes closed falling into a pit of darkness and a dreamless sleep only to not know what was going to happen when I woke up would change my life and make somethings worse.
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Song of this chapter: Stone cold by: Demi Lovato
Okay so this chapter has not been edited but I will get to work on it as soon to do this mostly because this was on my phone so I apologize and thank you for giving this story a chance and I hope you guys learnt something while reading this book.💙
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