Poems From The Heart And Mind

Why?

I'm standing here, staring at you, and I want to scream. I want to scream at you so loudly because you don't get it. You don't get anything I have said and it makes me so unbelievably mad.

Why don't you just understand? I've tried to make it so bloody obvious, yet you still haven't caught on. Why won't you stop making the tears fall from my eyes, please. I'm begging you to stop pulling them from my eyes each night. It's not fair if you can do that, but I can't do it to you.

You always asked me why. Why I decided to be who I am. Why I act the way I do. Do the stuff I do. And what you find so hard to believe was the fact that it was all because of you. You made me this way. And I can't tell if I'm happy or sad about that.

What I don't understand is how you wrap your head around it when she shows you the same affection I did. Why won't you understand that I feel the exact same way she does. Why don't you realize the amount of pain you cause me each waking moment? Wrap your head around it, please. Why don't you just stop making me hurt.

Why don't you understand that I am so painfully in love with you?

But all I do is stare because you don't see me. You're looking at her. Smiling at her. And I'm left in the shadows again.

Wishing it was me and not her.