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I'm late

I'm late, I'm late, I'm very very late.

I couldn't stop chanting that in my head as I tried to gather all the things I needed for class. You'd think after three years in university I'd know how my schedule worked. Well you were wrong.

I was half way through my fourth year at Cambridge University, and I know that sounds like a very long time, that's because it is. But when you're taking a vetinary course like I am, it takes a total of four years at uni before you can even think about applying for vet school. But hey what can I say, I love animals.

Ever since I was little I've dreamed of being a vet. Only now can I make that dream a reality. But not if I don't hurry up and get my ass to class.

***

'Ok class, today we are going to do quite a simple task. All you have to do is label each body part of each animal that is shown.'

Simple he says. This will be easy he says. Mr Scouser needs to look up the meaning of a 'simple task'. I've been doing this course for quite a while but now we are learning about a completely different type of species.

I stare blankly at the photo in front of me, it looked like a seahorse but I wasn't sure what kind. I grumpily put my pen down and stare long and hard. It's no use.

***

I miserably walk out of the class room.

That was pathetic. You will never be a vet at this rate. Your childhood dreams are getting out of reach.

The voices carry on saying inside my head, I try to ignore them but sometimes it gets too hard.

'Hey Griffin, how was class?'
I look over to Alexia, me and her have been friends since secondary school. She was mixed race and had beautiful curly hair.

Me and her have similar courses, well apart from the fact she's training to become a pediatrician. Me, Alexia and my two other best friends Beverly and Michelle, all share a dorm together. They just had earlier classes today.

I smile glumly at Alexia and sulk beside her, waiting for her to give me some kind of comfort. Instead I got quite the opposite.

'Oh my god my lecture went so well. I understood all of it, I'm actually on the road to victory. I'm gonna be the best pediatrician in the world.'

She squeals at me and I feel myself ready to erupt. Actually too late, the floodgates have already opened. I ball up right there in the middle of the university. Alexia looks at me weirdly and does that thing where you check if you have bad breath.

'Dude what's wrong? Was it something I said?'

She asks pulling me into a hug, I just carry on crying. That's when she pushes me away and looks down at her dampened shoulder.

'I just bought this. That's it I'm taking your whiney ass, new clothes ruiner to Beverly and Michy.'

She grumbles before dragging me by the hand, I just make disgruntled noises of disapproval and trail behind. It seemed like I didn't really have a choice, I just want to go back to my room.

'God you're so emotional, I'm literally the opposite. I'm like a robot, I feel no emotional pain.'

Alexia murmurs and I just roll my eyes and stare at the floor below me. The tears streaming down my cheeks drop down to my feet. I seriously wish I wasn't such a crybaby, it seems like a new hobby of mine.

What if you fail? What if this is a sign you aren't supposed to be a vet? What if you should give up? But what if you can't find a job? What if that makes you homeless? What if no one cares for you? What if you starve? What i-