I Sat Near My Window Staring Out At The Trees . School Has Been Waaay Too Stressful . Without My Best Friend I Lacked Motivation . My Mama Has Been So Angry Lately . I Feel Myself Being Mean To Sammy , It's Uncontrollable .
The One I Love Unconditionally Wants Absolutely Nothing To Do With Me , Though He's Broken My Heart Many Times && I Don't Care For Him I Still Love Him. There's Two Guys I'd Like To Date , But One Is In Another State && The Other Only Wants Sex . I'm Beginning To Fall For This One Guy That Flirts With Me , But Does He Even Like Me ?
I'm Too Emotional && Unstable For This Kind Of Stress . I Just Feel So Unloved && Unwanted . No Matter How Hard I Try I Continue To Stay Down . I Just Want Happiness .
As Hurt As I Am I Continue To Speak With Attitude When All I Want Is To Break Down && Cry. I Seem To Crave A Relationship , Just The Thought Of Someone Loving Me , Holding Me , Making Me Forget All My Problems Eases My Troubles.
I Can't Even Respond To My Messages Because The Feelings Are Waaay Too Heavy . I'm Tired Of Sitting Here Crying . I Don't Want My Friends Worried About Me Or Feeling Sad Just Because I Am . I Want To Curl Up In A Ball && Just Die .
"Sajje ..."
"Get Out Sammy ! Just Go !"
I Didn't Mean To Yell At Sammy , Yet I Could Find It In My Heart To Apologize. I'm Becoming My Mother . Holding In Emotions && Stress , Lashing Out On My Family , Not Able To Apologize.
Sammy Entered My Room As I Continued To Yell At Him . He Embraced Me With A Warm Hug .
"It's Gonna Be Okay Sajje , I'm Sorry For Making You Mad . Please Forgive Me ."
I Tightly Wrapped My Arms Around Him As I Began To Cry Uncontrollably . How Is He So Calm && Forgiving ?
After Sammy Left My Room I Sat In Silence && Darkness With My Mind Full Of Suicidal Thoughts . I Stared At The Wall Without A Tear Left To Cry .
Just Then My Phone Vibrated Indicating I Had A Message
Unknown : I Missed You Baby Girl
