Camouflaged Angel <3

Camouflaged Heart <3

Journal and Letters Of Private Tanner S. Matthews Recovered During the Vietnam War

Date: November 3rd, Year 2002

Chanelle,

I got your letters, your pictures,and of course, your love. Don't be worried baby, this war should be over soon. I'll be back in your arms once again. Yes, the night before I left was so special hunny and I can't stop thinking about it. I've been in this war all of one month and each night is longer than the next. I think its because I can't stop missing you. Every night though, I lay out under the stars by our base. I see others doing it too. We don't mind collecting sand in our pockets or a little tear in our eyes around here, but only at night. Anyways, I always take your picture with me(its always strapped inside my helmet) but when I'm laying in the cool sand, I have it close to my chest. Your eyes are like the stars Chanelle. Bright and lively. I bet you that each star is for how many times a soldier has wished he could go home. I'm sure my wishes are about as much as all the stars you look up to at night yourself. Is the big bad city treating my lady badly? I hope not, and most of all i hope you can see the stars, too. Its really not that bad here though, sweet, so don't think that as so. The desert is so hot in the day and I wish I could shed my gear but I can't. And I wont. I want to come home to you safe and sound baby. The base is cramped with sweaty, grumpy army men and training in long and aching. I've gotten pretty good at the sandy camouflage we are testing, where we hide behind the sand dunes and point our guns to the target. I've learned a lot here,and I'll tell you that I'm more of a man. How much spit that gets plastered on my face daily from our commanding officers probably match the number of tears I have shed at night as I clutch your picture close to my chest. Yeah, I'm scared baby but I'm your big army man. And that will never change. I send you my heart, its forever yours. Could you though, for me, look up at the stars once and awhile? I know you love them. Do you remember sneaking out sophomore year to star gaze and just hold hands? Yeah, I remember. I wish the stars will bring me home so we can do it once again. I Miss you. I love you.

Forever And Always Yours,

Tanner

Date: December 24th, Year 2002

Dear My Love,

       My letters can't reach you for awhile. Nor can yours. I wish I could speak to you again my sweet. I surely miss you; my heart is aching beyond my wounds. BUT don't you worry that big brain off your or bat an eyelash at what's going on out here, love. I will be home soon.This treacherous ditch we dug is our only communication now, for the outside world is no longer to our access. A hole with barriers for our squad to hide isn't much for talking and taking shifts watching the long desert strip in front of us doesn't give any of us a whole lot to talk about . They got us out on the field, away from base into the actions. The bombs are really loud around our "hole" but we just pound back and so far we are advancing fast and, more importantly, winning. So for now, I will write in this small journal the general gave all of us. For writing our attack plans but I don't think any of us do that, anyhow. I just saw Pvt. Johnathon-- you remember, he's Paula's little brother from chem class?-- rip a part off of his sleeve, tie it in a little bow and shut it in the book. You know, he has a kid back where you are, with Jamie K. Were all so young and he up and has a baby? Man, oh man.....We all left from high school here, except for the higher officers, they're all  old farts....But.... Oh Chany....I've been thinking... I want to have a baby with you Chany, girl. After I come home from this dust ridden war in this rocky  desert, we will make a family. I promise you that. I want to live forever with you, like marriage and stuff. But, imagine me saying that more romantic. Like on my knee and with a little box with a big white bow. But while I'm in this turmoil, remember something: I really do love you Chanelle. Don't forget. I will write more when I can.