Faith To Fall Back On
As lame as it sounds, I didn't dare slack on the couch. It held far too many memories. I drug a pillow and comforter from my bedroom and curled up on the living room floor. I had no idea what I had been mindlessly watching on the television. What every it was it kept my mind from thinking. The pounding on my door started again today. I knew it was Lucia fulfilling her promise to return after work. I had opted to work from home, to avoid her for the most part. Still she had stopped by earlier this morning, I had ignored her. She retreated declaring it wasn't over. I tucked the cover over my head, trying my best to shut her out.
"It has been three days Hayley. Come out or I'm coming in." Closing my eyes wishing with all I had that she would leave me alone. The prayer went unanswered, when I heard the door open and close then her footsteps.
Damn, I should have never given her a key. The warmth of the blanket was ripped from me.
"Come on Hayley." She pulled at my arm until I stood. The sight of me, I'm sure wasn't pleasant. I've cried for the last forty eight hours my eyes probably red and swollen. My hair still in its ponytail, was loose and shifted.
"Back off Luc." I grumbled. She grabbed my shoulders and directed me to the bathroom.
"Go get yourself cleaned up, and I will make you some really food." She glanced around my place in disgust from the empty pizza boxes and ice cream cartons. Her hand at her hips, when she realized I wasn't moving.
"You can do it yourself, or I can do it for you." I cringed at the thought of her bathing me and scoffed off to the bathroom. The warm water from the shower did feel great; briefly. As I had nothing to distracted me from my own thoughts. Until unwanted memories and tears came out to play.
After my much needed shower and the small breakdown. I slouched on the stool in front of the counter. While Lucia shoved a plate of food in front of me.
"Eat." She demanded. I forced a spoonful in my mouth not really tasting anything.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked after a couple more bites in.
Blankly, I forked around the food then shoved it aside before speaking,
"I started this year with no one. All I had was a fantasy of a guy I would never have. But somehow I have had my heart broken twice in the last six months."
I huffed, "I practically begged Lear to be with me, and I just couldn't keep him. And Colin-" My voice dropped as I spoke his name. I sniffed.
"He made me feel special. He wanted me from the beginning. He loved me. He knew I was still hung up on Lear before I did, and that I hadn't given him all of me. Still he stayed for as long as he could. Why couldn't I love Colin, like I do Lear, Lucy? Why?"
She leaned over the counter taking a drink of her orange juice before speaking.
"To be incredibly truthful with you Hales. Colin was a perfect boyfriend. He was sweet, and knew how to treat a woman."
I groaned and dropped my head on the counter, "How is that helping?"
She patted the top of my head gently, "Now hang on. What I'm trying to say its that he was perfect, just for someone else. You can't make yourself fall in love with someone who doesn't make every nerve in your body come alive. Colin showed you what you deserve and that is for a man to give you all of him, not just stolen moments here and there."
She tucked at a strand of my hair to get my attention back on her, "Listen, what we need is a girls' night. I'll call the blond squad, we go get a bunch of binge food, enough alcohol to forget Tasha's horrible singing as we listen to music and do the classic girl sleepover. How does that sound, hmm?"
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Cold Love
Roman d'amourHayley was nerdy and shy, she knew that. But when she is mistaken for someone she resembles greatly by the one who held her heart for years. She comes up with a plan to keep Lear by her side. Then it backfires. Can Colin help her move on or does Lea...
