God Is Leading You Somewhere. No Matter What Is Going On In Your Life , Everything Is The Way It Is For A Reason.Have Faith In His Plan
Luckily I Set My Schedule To Have All Morning Classes So The Day Was A Breeze. I Shopped For The Strip Club Grand Opening Tonight, Payed A Couple Bills And Even Had Time To Wash My Car. My Sister India Needed A Ride To Our Mothers House. Its Crazy How I Only Hear From Her When She Wants Something. I Decided To Go Ahead And Pick Her Up, She Was Twenty Three And Had Nothing Going For Her Self, People On The Streets Would Call Her A Hoe And I Didn't Wanna Believe It But She Would Tell Me Out Her Own Mouth About All The Men She Sleeps With. She Slept Around And Did Not Care. The Ride To My Moms House Was Quiet. My Sister Usually Always Has Something To Say. " India " I Looked Over As We Pulled Up To A Stop Light, She Looked Up Slowly And I Couldn't Help But To Notice Her Face, She Looked Drugged Out. " Tell Me Whats Wrong India" She Ran Her Fingers Through Her Knotted Up Hair I Pulled My Car Over And Put It In Park Giving India All My Attention "Im Pregnant" She Looked Up At Me Before Looking Back Down And Grabbing A Plastic Bag That Was Knot Tied With A White Substance In It" Do You Mind" I Pulled Back On To The Street Heading Towards Our Mothers House "Of Course I Mind You Doing Drugs In My Car" I Already Knew It Was Coke. She Has No Job So Maybe Sleeping Around Is How She Pays For Her Bad Habit. " Your Pregnant. Do You Know Who The Father Is" She Scuffed "Yeah I Do Actually" I Pulled In Front Of Our Mothers House "When Should I Tell Her" She Looked Towards The Door "As Soon As Possible. You Should Talk To The Father Of The Child First, Just In Case Mom Wanna Be Foul And Kick You Out" My Mom Was Known For Kicking People Out Hell She Kicked Me Out When I Was Sixteen All Because She Found Some Coke In India's Room And India Lied And Said It Was Mine. To This Day She Hasn't Come Clean.I Was Welcomed To Stay With Liras Mother But Me And My Mothers Relationship Was Never The Same. We Barley Talk If Ever. India Nodded And Exited The Car Without So Much As A Thank You. I Pulled Back On To The Road Headed Home And I Received A Call From My Doctor "Ms.Watts" I Entered On The Freeway "This Is She. Did You Get My Test Results Back Is It What I Thought, A Yeast Infection " I Was Having Some Tiny Abnormalities In The Vagina Area And I Assumed It Was A Yeast Infection Witch Was Silly Because I Could Have Simply Given Myself An Exam And Found Out What Was Wrong " You Tested Positive For Chlamydia" I Pulled Up To A Stop Sign Shortly After Exiting The Freeway "B-But Ive Only Ever Been With One Person H-How Could This Happen" Its Like All My Schooling Went Out The Window. I Was Well Aware Anyone Could Catch An STD, Even With Having Only One Partner But I Never Would Have Thought Kevin Would Have Given Me A Disease. After Making My Follow Up Appointment I Sat In The Car In My Parking Spot And Called Lira. I Told Her Everything Even Though It Was Super Embarrassing I Know I Could Trust Her. I Decided To Skip Out On The Grand Opening And Do Some Stdying, Of Course Lira Understood And Even Offered To Skip It But I Told Her It Was Fine, She Needed To Support Her Man. It Was Getting Dark Out And People Have Been Getting Mugged Lately So I Went Inside My Apartment, Laying In Bed Listening To Music I Just Let My Thoughts Consume Me.
I should have used protection Instead of moving so fast But I'm a sucker for affection Should have never showed you that And now I got myself to blame Why did I let you come in? I shouldn't have gave my heart away But I trusted you with it
I Would Have Sworn Those Lyrics Were Made For Me. How Could I Be So Naive And Stupid. I Should Have Known, Or At least Assumed Something Like This Could Happen Especially With Him Cheating. My Thoughts Were Interrupted With Knocks At My Door. I Hope Lira Didn't Ignore Me And Still Showed Up. To My Surprise It Was Jayceon, I Looked Down At My Outfit
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I Figured What The Hell And Let Him In. But Not Before I Buttoned Up A Few More Buttons " Jayceon What Are You Doing Here" I Couldn't Help To Stare At The Beautiful Bouquet Of Flowers He Held In His Hand, He Handed Them To Me " Im Sorry. I Could See That I Hurt You And Im Sorry" He Seemed Sincere. I Nodded As I Stepped Aside Letting Him In " He's Not My Boyfriend Anymore I Broke Up With Him So You Don't Really Have To Apologize I Guess" I Didn't Tell Kevin It Was Over Or Even That He Has An STD But He'd Realize Both Eventually.I Walked To The Kitchen And Placed The Flowers In A Vase. "Is That Why You Were Crying" I Sat Next To Him On The Couch " No, Actually Thats Not Why" I Instantly Started Thinking Of The Real Reason I Was Crying And That Made Me Want To Cry All Over Again. I Stood Up And Began To Head Towards My Room. I Could Feel The Tears Comimg. I Felt Disgusting "Miracle Wait" He Grabbed My Hand. I Couldn't Help It, I Started Crying "Tell Me Whats Wrong I Dont Wanna See You Like This" He Turned Me Around And Stared In My Eyes. He Genuinely Looked Scared, Just Like That I Let It All Out. I Told Him Everything. Why I Was Crying, Even As Deep As To The Previous Times Kevin Cheated On Me. He Picked Me Up And Carried Me To My Bed Laying Me Down Gently. He Cuddle Next To Me And Listened To Everything I Had To Say. When I Was Done I Looked Up Towards Him " Please Don't Tell Anyone" I Was Embarrassed Enough As It Was. His Facial Expression Looked Angry " Nah Mira I Wouldn't Do That To You"" I Nodded "Why Do You Look Upset" He Sat Up And Got Out Of Bed "I Just Don't Like Seeing You Hurt. I'll Be Back If Thats Okay With You Love" I Didn't Want Him To Go "Please Stay" I Pleaded. It Was Something About Having Im Around "Do You Really Have To Go" He Sat On The Bed And Started Kicking Off His Shoes. He Pulled Off His Shirt And Slid His Pants Down Leaving Him In Nothing But Basketball Shorts And Socks.We Laid Under The Covers Closer Then I Imagined We Would Ever Be. The Affection Jayceon Was Showing Me Was Completley Different From How I Usually See Him Act.I Fell Asleep To The Sound Of Him On The Phone. He Gave Out A Familiar Address And It Sounded Like He Was Giving Directions But I Couldn't Make Out To Much Of His Words Before Falling Asleep
