I Could Go Swimming In Those Eyes

Dan is nervous because it's his first time having sex with Phil.

a/n: This is a RP with IzzyHasNoLife. you can also read it on my tumblr if you prefer. Just wanted to say that I loved writing this with her she's literally the best and hopefully we'll rp again in the future <3

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Genre: Fluffy Smut. RP

Status: Completed

Words: 8.396

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‘This was the most fun I ever had,’ the speakers blared Dan’s interrupted sentence from the video editor. Dan rested his chin on Phil’s shoulder, watching the computer screen as he threw his arms around his beautiful new lover. They hadn’t been seeing each other in person for long, but the hours of Skype calls and texts containing love and emotion were enough to let undeniable romance blossom between the pair. The second Dan stepped through the Manchester train station gates he saw Phil’s piercing blue eyes light up from underneath his fringe, an awkward wave quickly moved on to a hug, a short but meaningful collision of quivering bodies, shaking with nerves and excitement. Yet as soon as they reached home, hugs became sweet kisses and their relationship tightened as if a rope was wrapped around the couple, pulling them tighter and tighter Dan didn’t care much about what people would say, he didn’t care if the video wasn’t too funny or too entertaining – it was his first video with Phil and the time they’d spent together filming it was everything that mattered. That’s why he wasn’t paying much attention to Phil’s actions as Phil edited the video, showing his experience and ability at such thing. Both boys watched the images of Phil jumping on Dan, who squealed and chuckled before relaxing on the floor. They could only see the back of Phil’s body because soon he was straddling the younger’s hips, and that action made it impossible for the camera to catch everything that happened. However both of them knew what they had done just a few minutes earlier, and they could still feel the adrenaline running in their veins. That particular kiss was more special than the others they’d shared whilst filming the video, maybe because of the way Phil locked his eyes with Dan’s, the way Dan just held his gaze and wondered how Phil’s eyes could be so out of this world. “I could go swimming in your eyes,” Dan whispered before placing his hand on Phil’s neck and pulling his body closer for the kiss. He’d said those words a few times before but never in person, and he wanted to find a better way of complimenting Phil’s perfect blue eyes, but those words were the only ones he could think of while staring at them Dan wrapped his arms around Phil’s neck, burying his face into the space between his own arms and his boyfriend’s smooth skin, sighing in the action. Inhaling Phil’s scent- a mix of cologne and strawberry shower gel- Dan smiled to himself and buried his head in further. Phil‘s concentration wavered, his attention moving from the boy with his arms around him to the video. He had to get this video done; get it out of his mind to let his brain whisper thoughts about Dan, and let him fill the short amount of time left he had with his boyfriend with playful memories and love. Reaching one hand up to stroke Dan’s forearm, Phil turned his head and kissed the boy’s chocolate-coloured hair. As he turned back to the bright laptop screen, Dan’s delicate hand pushed Phil’s head back to stare into his lust-filled eyes. “You are so beautiful,” Phil whispered, nuzzling the noses of their slightly worn down sharpie cat whiskers before letting his and Dan’s lips softly press against each other, letting the moment overpower any thoughts of editing and YouTube. It was just him and Dan in this room, and that was all he needed. After a few seconds of lustful kissing Dan pulled away and resumed to his position before, with his face tucked into his arms, gently kissing the yellow and black checked shirt which covered Phil’s shoulder. The only voices in the room were Dan’s and Phil’s, coming from the video. The room itself was quiet and both boys kept staring at the screen. Dan sighed as he realized that it was getting late, and the video wouldn’t get finished so fast considering Phil still needed to go back and edit other little things, decide which parts were better, etc. He watched the clock and started tapping, getting kind of bored of all that editing thing. Sure, he loved spending time with Phil, and he loved just sitting there with the boy he loved so much, but he couldn’t help but think that each minute they spent editing the video was a minute they wasted. “Phil” He said softly, letting his fingertips slowly run up Phil’s arm. “Yeah?” The older boy replied, trying not to take any notice of Dan’s action. “Do you like what I just did? Any better idea?” Dan flirted suggestively, it would have been extremely seductive if it wasn’t for the childlike cat whiskers on his nose, which made anything the boy did look playful and innocent. “No, it’s fine…” Phil sighed. Dan kissed the side of his head. He didn’t want to sound nor look so rushed, but honestly, he couldn’t stand it anymore. He needed Phil’s undivided attention, and he would show his need if that’s what Phil wanted him to do. He knew that Phil would never initiate something because he was scared of pressuring too much. “I just have one idea, actually…” Dan slid his fingers to Phil’s hand, stopping its movement and intertwining their fingers. He didn’t really care if he was interrupting Phil’s actions, because what he was about to say would explain it. “I think you should edit this later, when I’m not here anymore… We don’t really need to upload this video tonight…” his voice cracked a little bit, but he wanted to sound confident, at least while they were still just exchanging random kisses. He knew that if they went further, he’d probably look like a scared baby (because, that’s how he was feeling, after all – he’d never been with another man before) therefore he wanted to make it clear that he wasn’t 100% a baby. “I mean, your subscribers can wait… I just really want us to be here, now, and-" he kissed Phil’s neck “I really don’t want to waste any second.” Phil relaxed under Dan’s touch and tilted his head so the boy could have more space to work with, and it was incredible how those lips managed to make him forget about everything that he was doing. The video didn’t matter, the subscribers could wait – which he repeated to himself as Dan’s mouth worked on his neck. Dan closed his laptop but didn’t stop pecking, he kissed all the way to Phil’s Adam apple, and stopped there to lick and suck on the skin. However it didn’t last long, because the need to taste the older boy’s lips was too strong. He brushed his lips against Phil’s, but before anything he locked their eyes and stared at Phil for a second. “You know that… coming here is one of the best things… that have ever happened to me, right? Like, meeting you...” Dan looked down and exhaled heavily, he hadn’t planned anything. He couldn’t really find the right words. “God, you’re so adorable” Phil said under his breath. He didn’t really care if the boy couldn’t express himself properly, because just the fact that he was trying meant a lot. Dan pecked his lips quickly then kissed his cheek 3 times: a kiss on each whisker on the side of Phil’s face. “God, you’re so adorable, and beautiful, and hot, and sexy” the younger boy whispered into the other’s ear. His heart was beating way too fast for it to be normal, and he had to gather all his strength to say those words, but it was for Phil, and for Phil he could be strong. Phil smiled with Dan’s words and cupped the younger’s face, attaching their lips together. “Let me kiss you please” he said against Dan’s mouth, and in less than a second their lips were sliding against each other and Dan’s taste was perfect, he couldn’t get enough of it. They kissed with passion, but it was still kind of lazy until Dan’s movements began to get faster, like if he wanted more, like if he needed more. The kiss deepened as Dan started to run his hand through Phil’s hair, letting the smooth strands run through the gaps between his fingers; his mind set on Phil- only Phil- how he wanted to show the older boy how much he meant to him. All was silent except for the sound of reattaching lips and Phil’s hands sliding down the fabric of Dan’s black top. The feel of masculine hands made Dan’s breathing quicken, making Phil gently grip his waist and stroke his thumb against his torso lightly to calm the boy down. “You’re so perfect,” Phil whispered, breaking the kiss for a second to lean their foreheads together in order to let Dan lay his eyes on the tilted smirk Phil’s lips formed into, “I just want you so badly, beautiful.” Their lips reconnected again, the kiss deeper still, Dan opened his mouth slightly and let his tongue run along the surface of Phil’s bottom lip, which Phil let slip into his mouth. Dan’s hands cautiously moved around his lover’s back, exploring crevices and bone, his fingertips sliding up Phil’s spine which bent back as Phil melted into the younger boy’s touch. Phil’s hand slid up and down Dan’s thigh as the other hand snaked around his shoulders; Dan wanting nothing more than to take off the beautiful man’s top and kiss every inch of his skin, to leave purple bruises to mark Phil his own, but having to pace himself and let the older boy take the lead. Phil’s kisses moved from Dan’s lips to his sharp jawline, gently pressing his lips in a trail to his boyfriend’s neck, working out where the most sensitive spots are and plotting them like a map in his head; hearing Dan gently curse under his breath as he felt the tickle of Phil’s fringe on his chin contrast with the waves of indescribable pleasure Phil’s lips brought to him. Phil’s mind conjured up images of Dan underneath him, moaning as Phil ran his hands and lips across the exposed body in front of him, free to touch and use in any way desired for himself and his partner. His head filled with the sounds of Dan’s ecstasy which he had heard many times on Skype, distorted and uncontrollable, but for the first time in his life he could control them, the intensity and timing was all up to Phil’s touch and words. Dan had never felt like this before. Everything about the situation sent sparks of adrenaline to every inch of his body- like the way the place smelt like and the way the lights weren’t so strong, the way Phil’s hands held him in a soft but also dominative way, the way their tongues moved together in synchronisation, the way Phil’s tongue tasted and the way he could hear the cars outside but they were still too far away for it to matter, because the only important thing in that moment was the feeling he got while kissing Phil. They kept making out for a few minutes, their position changed so they were more comfortable and Dan was straddling Phil’s hips. Dan found it cute the way Phil stopped for a second to breathe, but didn’t waste more than that second because he didn’t want to break the kiss. It was lazy but also full of energy somehow, Dan felt like he had all the time in the world and he wanted to live that moment, because really he had never felt like that. The butterflies in his stomach wouldn’t stop even though it wasn’t their first kiss, and his fingertips were cold but he knew Phil would never judge him. He hadn’t felt like that before because he hadn’t been in proper love with anyone else before. He’d been with other people, but nothing was like being in Phil’s arms. He’d been “in love” with two other people, if you can define “love”. First, it was love, but not so real because it didn’t last. Then it was love, but it wasn’t happy love, as he couldn’t be himself. Then with Phil, it was the third time, and finally he felt like it was real true requited love, which he thought was the best feeling in the world. He’d been talking to Phil for months, Phil was his best friend and he trusted Phil with his own life. Maybe they didn’t know each other when it came to sexual actions (although they had had some pretty /nice/ Skype calls) but they knew everything about each other for sure, and the things they didn’t, Dan wouldn’t care sharing. With time, they would get to know every detail about each other’s personality, and that was what Dan wanted the most. It was all he could think about. With that thought, he pulled Phil’s shirt up slightly, his movements were so weak he didn’t think Phil would notice what he was trying to do, but of course Phil did. Phil didn’t stop him though; he just stopped the kiss to peck Dan’s cheek. They made eye contact and Dan could see the lust in Phil’s eyes, giving him the permission to keep going, therefore he did. Phil moved his body forward so the bed wouldn’t be in the way, (which also meant his body got even closer to Dan’s) and as the shirt got closer to his shoulders he lifted his arms up in order to help Dan. Dan knelt on the bed to be able to take the shirt off completely, so Phil’s eyes were in the height of the younger boy’s chest. Once Phil was shirtless, he quickly moved his hands and placed them on Dan’s lower back, and then kissed his still-clothed chest. He felt Dan’s hand on the top of his head, fingers running through his hair, and that sensation made his own hands move as well, and before he knew it his fingers were under Dan’s shirt, massaging the skin there. “You have back dimples too” he breathed, letting his fingertips feel the little dimples on Dan’s back. However in a matter of seconds he felt something else against his stomach, and he smiled when he realized Dan was already half hard. It was okay because he was too, and he was surprised he hadn’t felt it before. Maybe Dan was avoiding the closeness of their bodies because of that. Honestly, he couldn’t help himself anymore. He was shirtless, and Dan should be too. So he lifted Dan’s shirt up, with much more confident movements than Dan’s previous ones. As Dan was kneeling and Phil was sitting down, Dan grabbed the fabric himself and took it off completely. He was never really confident about his body, especially his stomach, and it was difficult to remain calm when Phil was pecking his skin… but it was also magical and perfect, because it was Phil. Dan slowly sat down on Phil’s lap, this time their bodies were much closer and their hard members met each other. The friction only made it more difficult for both of them to keep it slow, but it was okay. They didn’t need to make it fast. They didn’t want it to be fast. Once they made eye contact again, Dan smiled just by seeing Phil’s joyful blue eyes. It was a genuine smiled mixed with the shyness he got as their members got together. They didn’t have to say anything because it felt so natural, and the way they looked at each other meant much more than any combination of words Quickly and swiftly, Phil attached his tingling lips to Dan’s neck, sucking the areas he knew Dan loved the most, leaving light purple bruises; sweet breathy moans leaving Dan’s mouth as his eyes flutter shut. Slowly, Phil’s hands made their way down Dan’s sides, fingertips drawing spirally patterns like ivy as they slid to the waist of Dan’s tight skinny jeans. Still kissing affectionately at his lover’s neck, Phil started to play with the waistband of the tight black material covering Dan hips down; running his fingers in between the jeans and boxers, edging towards Dan’s crotch. Dan’s eyes open at the feeling of Phil’s hands, his mind suddenly aware of what was going to happen- not exactly fear but wonder, not knowing what to expect, was this really happening? The boy who used to watch make little random videos in his bedroom was all over him, body burning with lust and desire; the boy who helped Dan see things in a new light, made him happy and Phil himself felt like the only true friend Dan had. He only wanted this because he was in love with Dan. Phil wanted Dan, not the sex, he wanted the awkward tanned boy and nothing else. Yet that idea scared Dan slightly, he had never experienced this, what if Phil didn’t understand that Dan wanted to be careful? “Dan, are you okay?” Phil paused his affection and looked up at Dan before pecking him lightly on the cheek. “Yeah, yeah I’m fine…” Dan stuttered, silently cursing to himself for sounding so weak. Phil wasn’t convinced and looked up at Dan with understanding eyes, the light catching in pupils and shining up at his boyfriend. “Are you okay with what I’m doing? I’m not pressuring you into anything you don’t want to do, Dan,’ Phil whispered, not breaking the eye contact between him and the beautiful brown eyed boy on him. Hearing his lover say his name made Dan’s heart race, it felt personal, not something he would say to anyone in this position, the words he spoke were for Dan, only Dan, and that mesmerised him. “On Skype it was different, we were lost in pleasure, the words being so easy to say. I want you, Phil, I need you; I don’t remember much of what I said on Skype but I remember the thoughts in my head being how beautiful you were and how lucky I was to be able to talk to you like this. I’m just lost in thought and contemplation,” Dan broke the eye contact and stared at Phil’s bare chest, wondering why he came out with all of those things. He was slightly scared, no doubt, but he had been dreaming about this and discussing it with Phil for so long, he couldn’t move away from something he had wanted for ages. His attention was back to his lover’s lips, wanting to stop the silence and more on, but Phil wouldn’t let that happen. “I want you too, I need you more than you can imagine. I can’t stop thinking about you, and our Skype calls are the only things that make me truly happy nowadays. Now that you’re here, I feel like I’m complete, and I want you so, so bad. You can trust me, Dan” Phil whispered against his lover’s lips. He wouldn’t mind if Dan decided he didn’t want it anymore. For Phil, they could just cuddle and forget about it if Dan weren’t completely comfortable (although he would have to get off in the bathroom really quick), but Dan sounded honest enough when he said he wanted it. In fact, Dan’s words almost made Phil lose it, right there and then – because Dan made him feel so hot and loved at the same time and it was the best thing he’d ever felt. “I trust you” was Dan’s response, and he softly stroked the pale boy’s neck. Phil could see lust and fear in Dan’s eyes and hear honesty once again in his words. The first time was always the most difficult time, but also the most special and it would have to happen at some point. Phil placed his hands on Dan’s thighs and with slow movements rolled their bodies on the bed so Dan would be lying under him. Dan had been on top until then, but he thought he should take the wheel as he was more experienced and Dan was obviously too nervous for anything. “You’re the most beautiful person in the universe” Phil whispered in Dan’s ear, and then began placing little kisses on Dan’s neck, which soon turned into sucks and strong kisses that would probably leave one… or maybe three marks. Dan’s breathing was heavy and when Phil’s lips got to his chest, the older boy could feel how fast Dan’s heart was beating. “Do you like what I’m doing? I can stop…” Phil insinuated, maybe trying to get the tanned boy to speak a bit more. “Oh shit, of course I do” Dan said under his breath as Phil played with his nipples. Dan’s muscles were tense, he felt an intense urge to touch his still clothed cock but he wouldn’t dare doing it whilst Phil was all over him, kissing and sucking his skin and basically just driving him crazy. As Phil’s kisses got lower down Dan’s body, Dan’s hands grabbed hold of Phil’s head once more, scrunching up the boy’s ebony hair as Dan closed his eyes in ecstasy. Phil’s mouth trailed to the edge of Dan’s jeans, undoing the buckle of his belt with his lips still placing tiny kisses on the surface of his tanned tummy. Dan’s hands moved from Phil’s soft hair to the jeans on his own legs, lifting himself up so it would be easier for his partner to take them off; it wasn’t long until they were discarded on the floor and Phil’s lips were back on his lover’s pink ones. Dan let out a sigh of relief as the denim was removed, and started to gingerly roam around Phil’s back, feeling his clothed ass and his bent spine which started to stretch out under Dan’s shaking hand. The pale boy smiled on Dan’s lips as Dan gained the confidence to hook his long fingers in the waistband of Phil’s jeans and start to pull them down, trying his best not to hesitate and just to go with it. Both boys were in nothing but their boxers and Phil was obviously dominating Dan, so there was no awkward conversation over who would be topping that night. Phil grinded softly on Dan, biting back a moan as he created a little bit of friction on his and Dan’s members, only 2 thin layers between them. “Fuck, you’re perfect,” Dan whispered as he placed a kiss on the other boy’s cheek, feeling the skin get warmer as Phil blushed from Dan’s words. In reply, Phil grinded his hips a little harder and looked into Dan’s eyes to see if he was still okay with what he was doing, Dan’s priorities were higher in Phil’s mind, making sure that Dan was still comfortable and enjoying himself was the main thing. “Sweetie, just tell me if I go too far,” Phil whispered into Dan’s ear, nuzzling his nose into Dan’s silky hair, “remember I want you to be happy with this, not feel like you have to pleasure me for my own sake.” Dan smiled at his boyfriend’s caring words and reattached their lips again, tongues clashing with passion and emotion, words they couldn’t form being let out in the kiss and their hands roaming around each other’s almost-naked bodies. Dan’s Hands stopped at the thin fabric of Phil’s boxers, the last layer before Phil was completely bare and exposed on top of him. His hands cupped Phil’s achingly hard bulge, attempting to massage it and earning himself a moan that passed Phil’s lips, sending vibrations onto Dan’s own lips. Phil slid his hands down the sides of Dan’s body as he moaned, wanting to waste no time and started to pull down the fabric of Dan’s colourful boxers, letting his erection free. The younger boy felt slightly shocked as he was suddenly completely naked under Phil, but when Phil’s soft lips started to explore Dan he melted under the touch. Without even realising, he was stroking the top of Phil’s underwear, tucking his fingers between his skin and the fabric against it. Again, it wasn’t long before the garment was discarded on the floor with the rest of their clothes. Phil was big, a lot bigger than Dan; they could never really tell through the bad quality webcams they communicated to each other with before. Phil scanned his blue eyes over Dan, taking in the beautiful boy lying beneath him with his hand wrapped around his own cock from seeing Phil in this state. All they saw was perfection. “Phil, it’s okay. I’m sorry I’m so nervous and bad at this, but…” Dan gasped quietly as Phil’s lips got to his inner thighs and spread his legs open a little bit. The action made him forget whatever he was saying, and holy shit, Phil knew how to work his lips. It took all of Dan’s willpower for him not to start stroking his own dick while Phil kissed his thighs and he tried to stare at the ceiling and think of something else because if he focused on Phil’s actions too much, there was a big chance he could come just by those little kisses and sucks. However Phil’s mouth was way too close to Dan’s cock and it was impossible to think of something else in that moment. He wasn’t sure if it meant that Phil would give him a blowjob, but just the thought of the pale boy’s warm mouth around his member was enough to turn him on even more. He didn’t think it was possible to get this turned on and he was biting his lip because all he wanted was to moan and beg for Phil to fuck him really hard but obviously, he had to try and control himself because he didn’t want to be the stupid eighteen year old boy who would come so easily. He left his cock and dug his fingernails on the mattress, trying to silently release the moans he was holding. Dan shut his eyes and his muscles were still very tense, he just wished he could relax and take it easy but it was so difficult. Suddenly he felt something different on his hand, so he opened his eyes to see what it was. Phil intertwined their fingers and Dan grabbed his hand as an instinct, but then realized it would look stupid so relaxed under the boy’s touch. In less than a second, Phil’s nose was brushing against his and Phil pecked Dan’s dry lips. Dan locked his eyes with Phil’s as he heard Phil’s next words. “Dan, I want you to understand something… I don’t want to have sex with you,” his words were slow and quiet, and Dan wasn’t sure about what he was feeling because it was a mix of confusion, fear, ecstasy and need for touch. Before Dan could open his mouth to say something, Phil continued. “I want to make love to you, Dan… Because I love you”. They continued to stare into each other’s eyes for a few more seconds; Dan smiled slightly, letting Phil quickly kiss his forehead. “I love you too, Phil,” he replied, losing himself in the oceans of Phil’s eyes. Phil gave Dan’s hand a squeeze before trailing his fingers lightly down Dan’s thigh, making him shiver from the sensitive motion. He gently started to stroke Dan’s cock while reaching over to his bedside table to take the bottle of lube he bought for Dan’s arrival: cherry flavour. He let go of Dan to rubbing the liquid on his fingers, warming it up. Dan took a sharp inhale of breath as Phil’s hand was removed, wanting nothing else but for Phil to fuck him; but he knew he had to wait in order for him to not hurt as much. “This might hurt a little bit. If you feel like you can’t handle it just say and I’ll stop. Promise,” Phil warned Dan, and pressed their lips together as his finger touched Dan’s entrance. He deepened the kiss as his finger slowly slid into Dan, feeling Dan clench in pain; whimpering quietly at the feeling and trying to concentrate on Phil’s skilled lips. Phil started to pump his finger and Dan gradually got used to the feeling, starting to sink onto his lover’s finger, a silent beg for it to go deeper. Phil added a second and Dan’s breathing went in time with Phil’s thrusts, his heartbeat got lower as he felt more comfortable with 2 fingers inside him. When the third entered, the kisses became sloppy but still meaningful, and Dan threw his head back as Phil’s long fingers brushed against his prostate. His mouth hung open slightly, taking in the pleasure the older boy brought to him with his skilled hand; whispering Phil’s name, not wanting to be loud and ruin the intimacy Phil smirked as he saw he'd found Dan's prostate but the Dan refused to be loud, biting his lips and trying to control himself. The image of Dan shivering and going crazy because of something he was doing was enough to turn him on even more, but there was nothing he wanted more than to hear his lover's moans. "Stop holding it in, I really want to hear your moans baby" Phil whispered in Dan's ear, letting out a quiet moan of his own. He was still a bit worried about Dan although what he saw in front of him was just a boy in pleasure, but he trusted Dan to tell him if he found it was too fast. "Shit-shit, Phil, do that again" Dan gasped, unsure of his own words. The feeling was great, but what he'd done with his own fingers was nothing compared to this. He'd fingered himself before, but never to the point of finding his prostate. Now, three of Phil's slender fingers were inside of him, digits against his walls, slowly stretching his entrance... and he was genuinely scared he would come if Phil touched his spot once more, but he couldn't help himself from wanting it again. Phil ignored Dan’s pleads, not knowing if brushing against the bundle of nerves was a good idea or a bad one. Instead of doing as the younger boy wished, Phil pulled out his fingers, making Dan moan from the feeling of emptiness before covering his mouth in shock of the sound that passed his lips. Phil kissed his lover’s red stained cheek, admiring the adorable boy like a kitten. “You’re so cute,” He laughed, before reattaching their lips, which were still tingling from the uncountable kisses they had shared already. As Phil rolled his hips into Dan’s, the younger boy’s hands travelled around Phil’s smooth body, gaining confidence as he cupped the beautiful boy’s ass and teased his entrance, feeling him shudder slightly with pleasure from Dan’s actions. His left hand, still quivering but more relaxed from Phil’s soothing touch, made its way to Phil’s chest, stroking the delicate hair and playing with his nipples. Phil slowly became more desperate, his cock had received no direct attention and all he wanted was Dan’s hands to venture just a bit lower, to feel his fingers wrap around his length and give him a dose of dominance and pleasure just for Phil. His thoughts were unsaid, not wanting to scare Dan, and he tried to concentrate on the clashing of tongues in the kiss. Dan felt an urge to show Phil that he could do something for him, just a little token of affection. His left hand left Phil’s chest, rummaging around the bed searching for the little cherry-scented bottle. Phil’s breathing wavered at the sudden loss of contact, but knowing what was to come next. He rolled his hips as Dan picked up the red bottle, hearing the liquid leave the top. Phil’s eyes turned to Dan’s elegant fingers (the years of piano playing really paid off, those hands were to die for) and how Dan rubbed the liquid against his fingers while contemplating how to execute his next gesture. Dan quickly gave Phil a shaky smile, and without hesitation he let his fingers wrap around the long length, dying to hear Phil moan his name just for a few seconds. Phil let out a shaky breath as he felt Dan’s skilled hands work along his member, rolling his hips slightly into the contact. Dan moved his hand with rhythm, the speed and grip close to perfect, Phil sighing his partner’s name onto the other boy’s lips. “You’re so hot when you’re in pleasure,” Dan smirked between kisses as Phil moaned when a wave of ecstasy hit him. “Am I still cute?” the tanned boy said as he pulled his hand away for a reaction, wanting Phil inside him more than anything but still pacing it; trying to act confident when inside he was still scared shitless, knowing that Phil was larger than just 3 fingers- and even that was painful enough. “When aren’t you cute?” Phil smiled, and then quickly added “You’re hot and adorable at the same time. How is that possible?” His words got a blush from the younger boy as a response. “I can say just the same about you” Dan’s hand slid on Phil’s side and stopped on his hip with a light squeeze. “But to be quite honest, you’re hotter than cute right now” He cupped Phil’s face and pecked his lips for the 100th time. “You’re perfect” Phil whispered. Dan loved talking to Phil and he wouldn’t mind doing it at all, but in that very moment there was nothing he wanted more than just go further with it. He wanted Phil to feel good as well, that’s why he gave him a quick hand job, but he presumed that what was about to come would be better than a flick of a wrist. At least he hoped it would be good despite his lack of experience. He was still very scared but he couldn’t wait for it. He just wanted the bad part to happen so they could get to the part in which both of them would feel pleasure with no worries, fear or pain. The younger boy wrapped his arms around the other’s neck and spread his own legs open a little bit more, to be on a more comfortable position. He buried his face on Phil’s neck although their chests weren’t attached. He didn’t want to make eye contact with Phil so he just shut his eyes closed, inhaled his lover’s scent and tried to relax all his muscles while Phil adjusted his hips. He sighed as he felt Phil’s tip on his entrance, and his first instinct was to tense again. Not wanting to hurt the boy beneath him, Phil slowly pushed himself into Dan, gently opening Dan’s legs a little. Dan’s breaths quickened, kissing the same spot by Phil’s neck as a distraction to the strange feeling. The older boy using Dan’s kisses to know if he was okay, or if Phil should slow down; Phil had to use all of his willpower to not shove himself inside and passionately make love to Dan, but if he hurt Dan for his own pleasure he would never see the same trust mist up in the beautiful boy’s eyes. Their relationship had something you could not fake or force upon them: trust. Pure trust which would show in most situations. Dan trusted Phil to go easy, Phil trusted Dan to tell him if he was going too fast. Dan’s hands kept changing position, 1 hand around Phil’s neck and the other one gripping the bed sheets, letting out small groans under his breath as Phil pushed. Their hips touched and Dan’s breath hitched, his head tilted back at the feeling. Phil watched Dan’s chest move up and down with heavy breaths, balls of sweat starting to form on his perfect body. He looked so sexy and Phil’s tummy filled with butterflies as he remembered that the gorgeous boy was responding to his actions. Dan’s brown hair slightly messed up but still smooth and gleaming in the light. As their eyes locked, there were a few seconds of nothing, just appreciating the other’s company. Dan took in the sharp swimming pool shade of Phil’s eyes, watching his pupils dilate with lust. His slanted mouth slightly open, his fringe uneven and his hair ruffled up. Dan inhaled deeply and as he exhaled, he relaxed all of his muscles, taking all of Phil and forcing his body to accept that he wanted this and therefore he would make it happen. He was thankful because Phil was so gentle, so perfect and gave him a minute to adjust. He wanted to move his own hips to adjust himself better, but one slight movement was enough to show him that it would be better if he just let Phil do it. “it’s okay, go ahead” Dan hinted, his voice so low and rushed Phil wouldn’t hear unless they were that close to each other. With that, Phil pulled out, a bit faster than he’d done before but still slowly. Dan gave him a weak smile, not showing his teeth and just enough for Phil to know he was okay. Phil stroked the side Dan’s thigh with one hand and supported his weight with the other one on the pillow, just next to Dan’s head. Dan’s hands were still wrapped around the other’s neck and as he felt Phil pushing in one more time, he buried his face where it previously was. He was still a bit shy and didn’t want him to see his face. This time, it was a lot less painful, a bit faster as well and Dan kissed Phil’s neck with more strength and confidence. Phil didn’t wait much this time, already pulled out and with another thrust got to hear a quiet moan from the younger boy. He could see it wasn’t a painful moan but a joyful one. Dan got to relax and just try to enjoy what was happening although Phil was way bigger than a few fingers, it wasn’t impossible to get used to it. Phil was getting a little bit faster with every thrust, trying to find a good pace to keep, one that Dan would be comfortable with. And finally they got to the part Dan was waiting, when the pleasure was much stronger than the pain and he couldn’t help but throw his head back on the pillow, leaving the shelter that was Phil’s neck. “Hmmm Phil” he moaned as he did so, and for the first time he didn’t care about his noise because the feeling was so freaking good he couldn’t be bothered to worry about it. Besides, he couldn’t handle being quiet anymore. They were alone, no one would hear it except for Phil, and they couldn’t get any closer than this. Phil moaned quietly as response to the younger’s boy and kissed his neck with a smile. He was in heaven too, and that moan from Dan only made him want to do it faster and harder, but obviously he wouldn’t. He still had to control himself. He lost track on how many times he’d pushed in and pulled out of Dan. The image of his lover right there, biting his lips, with his eyes shut and in pleasure was an inexplicable turn on, he’d never felt that way with anyone else before. He didn’t care if it was slow because Dan was so hot and everything was so perfect. “Hey, beautiful, let me hear you again” Phil said under his breath. “Please, you’re so hot” he added. Dan didn’t hesitate to do as he was asked. All he wanted was to moan because damn, that was the only way he could show Phil how much he was enjoying it. “Fuck, fuck, Phil… hmmm” he dug his fingernails on Phil’s shoulders as the older boy fastened his thrusts. “This-mm feels-mmm –soo-mmm good” Dan groaned, with all honesty in his voice because really, everything that Phil did was a whip of pleasure on Dan’s body Dan gently pushed Phil’s head forward and their lips reattached, slightly parted and moaning into each other’s mouths. Every thrust made Dan cry out louder, all words scrambled into moans but the only word that could pass his lips was the other boy’s name. Dan’s member was painfully hard and needing some release, but Dan didn’t want to ruin the moment by asking for Phil to touch him, or by reaching down to touch himself. But as Phil’s thrusts gradually picked up pace and strength, Dan’s hand slid down from Phil’s neck, gripping around the base of his own cock. He let his thumb slide over the sensitive tip, trying to move his hand at the pace of Phil’s thrusts; rolling his hips into both his own touch and the movement of Phil’s hips. Their mouths disconnected as Dan threw his head back in pleasure, letting the amazing feeling run through his body. The older boy noticed what Dan was doing and started to prise Dan’s hand off. He wanted to be the one giving Dan all this pleasure, he wanted to hear the breathy moans as a response to what he was giving to Dan. As he started moving his wrist in time with his lower body he watched Dan lose himself, his hands gripping the sheets so much that his knuckles were white, and his head tossing and turning, eyes closed shut, crying out Phil’s name as he rolled his hips into the sources of his pleasure. He was so beautiful, the boy he spent his nights talking to on Skype was with him, doing what they both fantasised about, and it couldn’t have been more perfect. Phil adjusted his hips slightly to try and find the spot which overpowered Dan’s senses when he was being stretched. When he heard Dan cry out louder than before he knew he had hit it directly, and felt him clench around his cock, begging for Phil to hit it again. With every thrust, Phil hit Dan’s prostate, feeling Dan’s hands roam over his bare back, his fingernails pushing in and leaving tiny marks which would fade after a few days. Phil’s hand moved faster and his movements inside Dan did too. The brown-eyed boy felt his stomach tighten and felt a rush of panic run through him. “Phil, I’m close,” Dan said, staring with wide eyes at his lover, not knowing what to do. Was he too early? Phil kissed his forehead and his kisses trailed to Dan’s little ears. “Then come for me, gorgeous” he whispered, his thrusts becoming evidently harder, slamming into Dan’s prostate while passionately kissing his pale pink lips. Phil felt Dan clench around him as he rode out his orgasm, setting off Phil’s in the process. Their lips still pressed together as they moaned each other’s names, the white come spilling onto Phil’s hand, still making love as the final wave of pleasure hit them. Both were lost in the pleasure, the younger one arched his back and cursed under his breath. He wasn’t himself in that moment, he’d never felt so great. Phil was happy he came just one second after Dan - he thought that finishing together was always the best when making love. Phil’s movements and their moans slowly stopped, leaving in the room just the sound of their heavy breathings. Dan’s eyes were closed and his hand was in his hair, as if he were trying to recover from their actions. Phil carefully pulled out, and then reached for his underwear which laid aside. Dan helped his lover putting on the underwear, and when he opened his eyes he saw the most beautiful person in front of him: Phil Lester. The tall black-haired boy, panting with a fast beating heart, cat whiskers smudged from sweat and Dan’s lips. He had no doubt that his first time was the best it could’ve been, and he was so glad Phil was the one who did it. He was so lucky to have that boy, and he wondered if he actually deserved that much. The blue eyed boy was about to roll and lay down next to him, not because he wanted to leave the other’s body but because he thought Dan needed some space, but the brown eyed didn’t let it happen. He wrapped his hands around Phil’s neck again and kissed him passionately, making it clear that he didn’t want Phil to go anywhere. They were sweaty and tired and even kind of gross, but it wasn’t a problem for them. Phil kissed back for a few seconds, and then disconnected their lips just so he could connect their foreheads instead. He stared at Dan’s eyes and Dan held his gaze. “On a scale from 0 to 10, how bad was it considering I’m as experienced as a 10 year old girl?” Dan asked with a cracked voice, due to all the moaning. He didn’t think his throat would be like that, he’d lost control of his actions and he wasn’t sure if he was okay or way too loud with his moans. He hoped it wouldn’t be awkward now that it was done. He felt perfect and he wouldn’t want to ruin it, but he wanted to say something as well and just try to be himself. “Shhh, you were perfect. It was amazing. Are you sure you’d never done it before?” The younger boy blushed to Phil’s words and looked down although he knew Phil was just saying it to be nice and cute. Truth was that Dan was scared as hell and Phil was the one who did everything. “Cute” Phil said with a peck on Dan’s cheek. “C’mon, let’s get under the duvets” Phil said quietly and moved, laying down next to Dan. For a few seconds they weren’t so close and it was enough to give Dan a feeling of emptiness, as if he were missing Phil already although the boy was right next to him and although it might sound silly. Once they got under the covers, Dan didn’t hesitate to cuddle into Phil, needing to be as close as possible. The older one wrapped his arms around Dan and kissed the top of his head, wanting nothing besides a cuddle in that moment. Phil held him with all his love because honestly, he loved Dan so much he didn’t think he could put it into words. He hoped they’d be together for a long time and he could show his love with that time, with little and big things. He hoped Dan loved him as much as he loved Dan, because he never thought it was possible to love somebody like this. Dan laid his head on Phil’s chest and heard his heart, the beating not so normal yet. He realized how sore he was (maybe they were a bit too rough for their first time considering Phil was that big), but the feeling of closeness and Phil’s scent, and just Phil in general, made it all better, and a little bit of pain couldn’t ruin the perfect moment they were sharing. After 5 minutes of letting their heart beats slow down, with Dan’s face snuggled into Phil’s chest and Phil resting his cheek on the younger boy’s head, it came to the blue-eyed boy’s realisation that their first video together was still waiting to be finished. “Hold on a second, Dan,” Phil kissed the top of his lover’s head, “I need to sort out the video.” Dan sighed as Phil’s arms loosened and the bed bounced from the sudden weight loss of Phil getting off and doing the 2 second walk to his laptop. 2 seconds felt like longer and goosebumps formed on Dan’s arms, and the room filled with the sound of Dan’s body twisting and turning in the bed, trying to recreate Phil’s warmth with the thin duvet. Hidden under the blue and green duvet, the younger boy could hear the happy voices of asking and answering questions of nonsense, a video that no-one will really see but he would replay millions of times as a memory of meeting the perfect boy he fell in love with, sharing smiles of love and laughter, two souls destined to meet as they finally touched in the flesh. “I think we can upload that now, I’m not sure if people would appreciate random cutesy moments,” Phil laughed as he checked that the cuts ran into each other smoothly. “Seems about done. Hey, Dan, do you want to watch before it’s uploaded?” Dan shook his head. “I need something to entertain me on the train back. Upload it quickly I’m cold,” Dan put on an over-exaggerated pout and wouldn’t drop it until the video was rendering and Phil was back under the covers, adopting the same warm embrace they were positioned in before. The older boy quickly squeezed Dan, making the boy smile as he repositioned his cheek on his lover’s chest. “I’m so lucky to have you in my life. I know its early days but the hours of Skype calls and texts and days of imagining you in real life, next to me, cuddling like this… It was really worth it,” Phil said, stoking Dan’s arm as if he was going to break. Dan smiled and locked eyes with Phil “I’m really lucky to have met you, and tonight really summed that up,” he winked and Phil laughed and ruffled the boy’s hair. God, Phil was so beautiful when he laughed. “But seriously, you’ve made me feel like I can achieve so much, I suddenly feel like I have an existence, like a reason to try… I can’t explain it, just ignore me.” Dan snuggled into Phil, inhaling his scent as Phil stroked his brown hair. “I guess we could go somewhere. Who knows, I just want to spend my life with you and I’ll be happy. I love you, Dan” Phil pecked Dan’s forehead. “I love you too,” Dan responded, attaching their lips and smiling in the kiss. For the first time in his life, he truly meant it.