It'll be okay.

Note

(Unedited, so sorry if there is any grammar issues or miss spelling)

This is something I just want write to help those that are in a bad place right now, that have depression, want to kill themselves, who do self harm. You are not alone, there is other's that are in your situation well clearly not the exact same but are dealing with rough times either at home, with themselves, at school wherever. I want you all to know there is other people and if you are suffering from depression or self harm please get some help or try to talk about it to a trustworthy family member or best friend.

You are wanted on this planet even if it may seem like no one cares there will always be someone even if you don't realize it. You deserve to live and have a full life, even if life keeps throwing curve balls at you keep fighting! You have lasted this long just keep fighting through the pain, the hurt, through whatever it may be, because you either take one to many pills, or cut to deep, or tie that rope you won't be here to regret that. You won't be able to see the love of your life or have children/grandchildren you won't ever have a future.

You all are strong even if you may think you're the weakest person you know, you aren't! You've been fighting so just keep going. Life will have its ups and downs and sometimes it'll feel like it's always down but it doesn't always have to like that, you can talk to someone get help and start to heal the wounds that have been open for as long as you can remember.

Pain isn't something anyone wants to feel, emotional or physically but we all have faced it head on some beat it while others are trying. Some have given up and lost all hope. They are in a dark place and if that is you, I want to say you are loved someone cares, you matter. I may not know any of the people that may be reading this but I love you all. You guys have been fighting for so long (I'm guessing)   You are a inspiration, that if you could keep fighting then why can't you? Or I?

Some people just need to find what the perfect thing is to help them and need to find the little things that'll make you happy weather it's a person, a item, or words.

Find the happiness even if the brokenness and darkness seems to push it all away fight to reach for it because you sure as hell deserve it. Even if you think what happened to you shouldn't affect you, it may not affect someone else but to you it does and that's all that matters if you are hurt don't let people try to make seem like it's nothing, like you are nothing. Because you sure as hell aren't nothing. You are a beautiful human being that has feelings, that has hopes and dreams, that struggles but keeps going. That hides behind a mask it all matters because it has affected you, even if it's a pets death, a breakup it all hurts maybe some more than others but all the same the pain is still there.

I'm speaking from experience I've gone through rough times hell I still am but I wanna try and help others even if I've never been in that situation. But I know what has helped me is talking to someone that you trust and won't tell anyone, that you know would tell you "please don't" when you say you wanna just give up, wanna end it all. But that's not the way out even though it'll stop the pain YOU feel it'll just caused more pain to your loved ones and even the people that have possibly bullied you or called you names, that have ignored you and made you feel worthless. I bet you if you just ended your life they would regret every mean word every hit they have to you the second they heard.

And what would your loved ones think? To know you've been depressed, or have been hurting that you thought that was the only way out, they would blame themselves and ask "what if" what if this or that. They would regret not seeing the signs or not trying to help because they just said "it's just a phase" but what if it's not just a phase? It's your life and everyone deserves to be happy to not be consumed in pain all the time.

So this note is not me trying to tell you "stop self harming, stop being upset, pick yourself back up" it's a note to tell you that you're strong, you're brave, that please just keep fighting. That it'll take time to heal those wounds and I know many things will never heal but the pain doesn't always have to be so bad. So please to all that are struggling get help, even if it means writing down your feelings and keeping it to yourself. I'm not saying go tell someone everything you've gone through and are struggling with but try to find someone that could help that you trust, that you know you could tell them.

Yes you will most likely feel like if you tell them you will be judged or looked at different, but if they truly care about you they won't judge but yes they will look differently towards you because now they know the struggles you are going through and perhaps they have their share fair of pain too.

But for you all that think someone is hurting or struggling tell them they matter, that you care, that you got their back because all they need right now is the reassurance that someone actually believes in them that someone actually cares and that someone will pick them up when they fall. Even if you aren't close to that person text, call, tell them in person! That you are there for them.

And hey I'm not saying any of this will fix your problems so please no hate towards me I'm just saying there is better ways to help you with the pain that aren't so self destructive. And I'm not saying everything will be all dandy but things that pain you right now could possibly lessen. Because no one deserves to feel pain.

So I challenge everyone to try to be nicer to people, compliment people, try talking to that kid that sits alone at lunch all the time, because I truly think that if you have a true friend it can make things better even if it's just talking about stupid things not even related to your struggles and problems it could make you feel happier. So please do not ignore people that are struggling try and help your best because people can slip through your fingers so quickly that by the time it happens you can't do anything and that it is a horrible feeling, helplessness.

At this point I'm rambling on but suicidal thoughts, self harm, or anything destructive to yourself physically or emotionally is not something to joke about its something serious and I just wish more people could take it seriously instead of making it worse. So for all of you keep fighting. That's all I can say, is that you are strong, brave, smart, beautiful, kind, amazing even if I don't know you, the strongest people are the ones who either are dealing with issues, have over come them, or are helping someone get through the pain. Every single person on this planet matters and they should know that. This whole note may just seem like useless words but words are powerful, but actions are too, both can hurt you, bring you joy, confuse you, bring mixed emotions. That's the struggle of being human, we all make mistakes and have struggles. No one is perfect not me not you, not that guy/girl that seems like their life is perfectly fine. Everyone has dealt with something or is it's because we are human. But don't let that bring you down because being human has its positives too, you can feel happiness, excitement, joy, and love. There is people that have dealt with things that could be similar to yours so they understand the pain but we as humans need to reach out to those that are hurting that are in a dark place because it will or had happened to everyone.

Some of you could possibly read this and say "You have no idea what I'm going through" and that's true I don't, but all I hope for is that this can help in any way or help you rethink about what you are doing when you have that blade in your hand or have that pill bottle. That you'll think of all the people in your life. So if you do read this and think it's utter bullshit that's okay none of you have to believe anything I've just written because you are your own person and you have the right to that opinion. But for those that have even read this far or agree to what I'm saying thank you, and if you get nothing from this get that self destruction isn't always the way out of things.

You all matter, ily all.