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Simula

Halos takbuhin ko na ang pasilyo na dinadaanan ko at banggain ang mga taong nakaharang para lamang makatakas sakan'ya.

"Estelle Antoinette, come here." Marahan niyang tawag sakin habang mabilis akong tumatakbo palayo sakanya.

"Let's talk..." tila pagod at iritado niyang ulit.

A part of me wanted to stop and talk to him. But I know if I do that, I'd completely lose my sanity and discard all the new priorities I've decided to commit myself into.

I long for his affection, his hugs, his kisses, and his love.

I long for everything he had made me feel and if things were simple, I wouldn't trade it for anything else.

Naramdaman ko ang kaniyang pagbuntong hininga sa aking leeg. Niyayakap na niya 'ko mula sa likod.

"Fuck.." I muttered. How can I not like his hugs when it feels like they are the only thing that could ever make me feel better... that having him close to me makes everything better and serene.

After calming myself, I gathered all the strength I could and faced him.

"Rai, I want out. Please." kabado ngunit desidido kong sabi sakan'ya. God, I need all forces to be with me so I could stick to the decisions I've made!

Matalim at marahan niya akong tinitigan. I looked away, I don't think I can look at him straight in the eyes, I might break and find myself crawling back to him.

I decided to give all the love and respect I had left to myself. I finally found the courage to choose what I think is best for me, and what I feel for him won't stop me from choosing myself.

Humakbang siya palapit sa'kin at hinaplos ang aking mukha. "What's our problem, baby?"

I sighed in defeat.

" I just really want out, Rai. No other reasons." malumanay kong sabi sakanya.

I noticed how his face hardened, his brown eyes expressing how tired and confused he is by the way I've been acting the past fews day, and the dark circles in his face hints how stressed he must have been.

Dammit, how can he look this good even in a situation like this! I can't help but admire and praise him.