Loving My Murderous Mate

I'm sorry

I look around the lush forest I was raised in. The full moon shines on my body that is in werewolf form. The wind blows through my fur as I walk through the forest. I howl for my pack to find me but there is no response.

I try to pick up a scent but all I can smell is.... Oh no.. Blood!! I bolt towards the smell running past tall trees. As the smell grows stronger, I slow down.

Suddenly I feel the ground give out from under me. I find myself falling off a cliff and into a body of water. The warm liquid encases my body then I rise to the surface. I gasp as I reach the surface and then crawl out to dry land.

I lay on the ground then notice the smell is stronger than ever. It's on me!! I look at the liquid that has drenched my body to see blood all over me!! I scream then jump to my feet.

I turn to run but I trip over something. I look down to see....no...no!! Ty!!

"Ty!! No!! Ty!!" I scream then grab my hair.

Only then do I look all around me to see all of my pack mauled, barely recognizable. I look up to find comfort in my last friend, the moon. But when I do I'm met a blood red moon. I scream.

----------------------------------------------

My legs are thrashing everywhere and I feel a sharp pain from both my hands. I don't dare open my eyes, scared that my nightmare might be real. I suddenly feel someone grab my shoulder's. I scream and start to thrash even more.

"It's okay sweetie!! It's just a nightmare!! Wake up!!" A husky voice says.

My eyes shoot open to see Alpha Kayden in front of me. I jump back away from him but hit the wall in the process.

"Calm down, it's okay." He soothes.

He reaches his hand toward my face and wipes his thumb across my cheek. I then realize he's wiping away tears I didn't know I shed. His touch instantly calms me down. Worry was clearly plastered on his face.

He looks down to my hand which I notice are dripping in blood. I feel his fingers run across my palms. I wince in pain. Looking up I see sadness in his eyes, and My wolf wants desperately to comfort him but my fear and hatred of him and his pack keeps my frozen in my place.

He runs into the bathroom and comes back with a first aid kit. Though I heal fast, the cuts are so deep it will take a couple of days. He pulls out a cotton ball and peroxide. Soaking the cotton ball in peroxide, he then gently cleans my hands.

I gasp when is goes over a really deep cut. I see him wince. My wolf whines because we made him feel bad but I shrug it off. He deserves it! I know he didn't mean to hurt me but he still did. We sit in silence as he cleans my wounds, then he looks at me.

"Who's Ty?" He asks suddenly.

I flinch at his name. Was I talking in my sleep? I start to feel tears sliding down my cheeks. I quickly wipe them away, not wanting to seem weak.

"He was my brother." I whisper.

I try to swallow the knot in my throat but fail. I tense when I see the Alpha's eyes filled with pain.

"How'd he die?" His voice is now a whisper as well.

I feel my anger bubbling over. Did he seriously just ask me that?!?! I look away from him, knowing if I didn't, I would do something I would regret.

"He died saving me from another werewolf." I say trying to sound calm.

I couldn't take it anymore. I want him to know what he did to me!!