Too Late

Memories

I missed them. It has been 2 years since I have seen them. We didn't leave on the best of terms either. I lived with the guilt of my words from forever ago. I mean, I already have a boyfriend and they don't know about anything I do.

"So you don't love me. Great." I look and turn to leave. "No we do love you. We just went through a lot with May. We were really close." I see Calum. "I am not as close to you as her? I was fucking kidnapped and everything with you guys. I feel pretty close to you guys, nevermind just Michael...well when I am good enough to leave, I will stay with Peyt." I turn around and they are crying.

I know that Peyton had the best of intentions with keeping me away from them. He was fuming when he found out about them going on tour and coming to L.A. "Peyt. It's fine. I won't go. You don't have to worry." I get off the couch and walk over to him. "What if they come to you? Alex. You can't see them." He has his arms against the fridge "I promise. I wouldn't do that." I try to comfort him.

"They ruined you and my sister." He started crying now and I felt guilt come over me. "I-I didn't know much about her. I know that they loved May though. They didn't even get remotely upset about leaving me." I wipe his tears. I hated to see him cry. 

"Let me see your knuckles Peyt. They are bleeding and I can help." I grab his hand and walk him to the couch. "I am going to get the first aid kit. Don't punch anything else." I said laughing to lighten the mood. I walked into our bedroom and opened the closet. We decided on putting a first aid kit up there when I moved in. I grabbed it and walked back to him. 

"You phone is ringing." He handed it to me with his good hand. It's an unknown number, but I decide to answer it anyways. "Hello. Alex Irwin speaking." I say acting happy. "Hey Alex." His voice rang in my ears. I put it on speaker. I asked his name just to be sure. "Who is this?" I start to clean my brothers hand. "Your brother." I knew it. "M-Michael?" I fight back the army of tears. "Do not call this number anymore." Peyton hung up. "Thanks bubba." I smile and wrap his cleaned knuckle in a bandage.

"I know that you were close to him, but you can't trust them. Remember?" He pulled me closer to him. "Yes I do." I start playing with my fingers.

Michael's POV

I called her and Peyt hung up. I didn't think that he was still mad at us. "Any reply?" Luke walks into my room. "No." I lied. "She is still our daughter." He grabbed a controller and joined in on my game I had paused. "She is 19 almost 20. She doesn't have to listen to our every command." I inhale and take a deep breath to try and get rid of the knot forming in my stomach. 

It has been 2 years and I can still hear her voice in my head. None of us can go to her house to see her because she moved to America with Peyton. She blocked all of us on social media and so we can't even see what she looks like now. "I miss her." I whine to Luke. "We all do." He sat playing on his phone until I resumed the game. 

We all have changed so much. Calum started smoking, Luke stopped shaving and lost his lip ring at a party. Ashton broke up with Bryana because she reminds him of Alex. Then there is me. I got burnt during a show because I thought I saw her. We all are changing. 

We decided that this will be our last tour. We are splitting up. We all are sad about it but we can't focus with Alex gone. I feel like this is our fault. We didn't try hard enough.

Alex's POV

I decided to go on a walk and get my mind off of things. I have changed so much that no one knows what I look like. I am out of my punk phase. I got rid of the piercings and dyed my hair a super light blonde almost silver. I still had the tattoo but I just covered it up with a thousand pounds of makeup most days. 

I threw on a light jacket and started to walk outside. "Alex?" I turn around and see Niall and Louis. "Oh my god!" I ran towards them. I jumped on Niall and started hugging him. "Feeling the love little sis." Lou whined. They called me their little sister whenever they came to see me in the hospital but the boys don't know that. "Shh. I'm having a moment." I got off Niall and hugged Louis. "You look so different." Niall said. 

"What are you guys doing here?" I asked and they shrugged. "We wanted to go on a vacation and so we left the other two in England and came here." Lou answered my question. "You two are awesome! Have you heard about the last tour?" I asked getting a little more serious. We walked to the park. "Yeah." Niall murmured. "They have changed so much. Luke stopped shaving and lost his lip ring while he was drunk, Michael got burnt and Calum smokes." Lou tried making me feel worse than I already do.

"Please don't tell them this. But Peyt won't let me talk to them. He don't want me to turn into who I was. I miss them but I feel like they hate me." I say fighting tears for the millionth time today. "They don't hate you. They are quitting the band because they can't focus. They are too worried about you." Niall rubbed my back. 

"I still feel the guilt of saying that to them. Just a few more months and it will be 3 years guys. 3 years ago that they lost everything. Me, May and their sanity. I don't know what I will do when they come here. Should I sneak off and risk everything that I have worked for? Should I stay home and let the guilt eat me alive and lose everything that I have worked for?" I can't hold back the tears this time. 

"We should take you home now Alex." Lou started walking back towards my house. I start to calm down as I hug them and wave goodbye. I open the door and see Peyton standing angrily in front of me looking at his phone.

"They are talking about you. How they are quitting because of you." He yelled and went to hit something. I went to block his hand like I normally do, but this time, it failed. He hit me. I know that it was on accident and that he didn't mean it. "Oh my god! Are you okay? Sorry Alex" He helps me up. "I am fine. Just need to clean up the blood off my lip." I go into the bathroom and wipe off my lip. It was going to be swollen for a while. 

A/N- Yes I am very aware that the picture is Cameron Dallas. But here is the second chapter! - Zoee