I'm depressed and there's no way to denie it. I push people away to not hurt them but hurt myself. No matter how much try I can't forgive myself. I chose myself over my love and now I live with my head's demons.
I pushed my only friend away, the only person I cared for. No matter how hard I try not to I still see him in my dreams though he is not mine any more. I try and act as if I don't care for him but I do. I would die for him any day because his life means something.
This world needs his ideas, his wonder. The idea of equality, justice, change. But I belive they don't need me as much as they need him. He is different , he is strong, he is special.
He is the one person I can not get over. I shattered his heart which turned mine cold. So I must admit , no I'm not a good person for hurting a guy like him. People like me deserve to go to a nut house or put on pills for hurting a guy like him.
So I've I had one wish it would be on this boy. I would give that boy my heart to live on with and make others just as happy as he did to his cold hearted ex girlfriend. I am so sorry but I must say good luck u got a chance I got non.
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