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I am afraid

(Back to) Maha pov

"May... Roxie is not my girlfriend"

What was he talking about ? I heard her say " I am his girlfriend". I looked at him but he was looking down and he was paler than usual .

"..B-But she's about to be my girlfriend! " Ouch. It was like my whole world was crashing down , I felt a pain in my chest , I've never felt this before.

"Oh , hum- yeah .. That's good for you" I tried to smile , but I just couldn't.

I was afraid... Afraid of losing him , afraid someone was going to make him happier than me . I heard the engine and rested my head on the window , didn't wanted to talk about anyone . The ride was cold and silent , none of us dared to say a little thing , when we arrived at my home there were ambulances and cops.. Two people got out of the house with a stretcher and a bag on top... NO ! please no... I jumped out of the car and ran toward the house. " WHAT HAPPENED ? THIS IS MY FAMILY.." Someone hugged me.. It was my uncle Eric " I am sorry honey , we both knew it would happen..." His voice cracked at the end of the sentence. I didn't say goodbye , I am never going to see her again . She's gone.

She's dead .

I screamed , I screamed everything I had in me ... I needed his arms , Harper's . I turned around and he was not here.. He left , he left me. I pressed my hands to my face as i shivered in the cold, my hair in a messy bun , I took a deep breath feeling broke . I feel like I am never going to be happy again.

Harper pov

I left , what the fuck is wrong with me ? She needed me , I needed her but I still left .. All that because of Roxie and her stupid blackmail.

I was about to catch Maha up when Roxie grabbed my arm " Harper , if I was you i'd stay here" she said with a smile on her face " Yeah , I rather die" , she was here right in front of me after everything. " You were the first girl i've ever loved Roxie , you were my first kiss , first time , first everything . But you broke my heart and i've moved on , you should too" This girl I met in in 8th grade and I was crazy in love with her but one day I caught her cheating on me , it's maybe the reason why I became a player ... Until Maha . " Yeah , and I am so sorry Harper , but now you are going to break her heart , you'll say that I'm about to be your girlfriend and that you love me .. And of course the best part is if you don't do it , I will make sure that all the school know about your little crush on her and second about your fabulous past baby ... We were a good team , weren't we ?"

I should've said no , but I didn't.

I felt awful about what I did to Maha , I decided to take a shower it's always good to think a bit . The soft patter of water calmed me down , I allowed to hot warm to flew over my head my dark hair was sticking to my forehead .

You like her , you Like Maha Harper

It was not like that , it was just the way she made me feel like... Like I was pure , I Hated myself about my past only my brother and Roxie knew what happened .. It destroyed me and I couldn't let it destroy Her , she was so innocent and good ... Too good for this world . I should've been here for her and hugged her ... So that what I decided to do . I wraped a towel aroud my waist and dressed simply and run to her house.

But he was here.. Alex was here hugging her.

Everything was suddenly black.

Maha pov

I couldn't stop crying thinking about how my life was a mess , I was under the porch and I saw a silhouette in front of me , I was Hoping with all my heart that it was Harper ... But no It was Alex , he didn't say a thing and hugged me , I needed it but he wasn't him ... He wasn't Harper .

As we pulled away we heard a little noise , someone fainted . We got closer and it was Harper .

"Bro ?! Wake the fuck up Harp!" Alex said as he tried to carry his brother in the house , I was happy.. He came after all , he maybe had something to do ...

You like him Maha , please admit it.

Yes I liked him , but he had a girlfriend .. I mean not yet...

"Urghhh..." Harper groaned

"Harper ? Are you okay ?" I whispered yelled.

He didn't answer but his strong , muscled arms wrapped around my waist pulling me against his chest , and suddenly all the tears stopped falling down my cheeks.

"I'll leave you some privacy" Alex said leaving.

Harper leaned his face toward mine and I hold my breath. His face stopped , his lips were a centimeter away from mine , he smelled so damn good. He was about to kiss me but I stopped him . "You have a grilfriend , Harper" It hurt like hell to say that.

"I don't care about her , I want you" He said crashing his lips against mine , I felt good in his arm . He moved his lips down to my neck to leave an hickey and bit the mark causing me to moan , he smiled against my neck.Damn that boy know how to do it. He brought his Lips in front of mine once again , and kissed me... Again.

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