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If you don't tell me...

 Guys I know I've changed the time , and i am really sorry 

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 Maha pov

"Look , Maha I like you ... You're the one I like" He finally says it ! I can feel my heart beating so fast . 

"And I like you too , but.. What about Roxie , what did you tell me that shewas about to be yours ? I kind of felt a bit jealous tho" He blushes , ow he is so cute !  

"She blackmailed me.." He sighes looking away. 

"SHE WHAT ?! Harper ! Why didn't you told me , what could be that bad to give up on us ?" I  scream , but I am not mad at him , I can't be mad at him after what he said . 

"My past .. My past destroyed me May , you can't understand ... It will destroy you ! All i want to do is protect you !" He whisperes  , he does not trust me. 

"Trust me ! I'll understand no matter what it is , I want you Harper ! And I've decided to fight for what I want and ... I want you... I want us ... We could be real." I say holding his hand , that's the moment I realized he's shaking. That's the first time I see him in this State. 

"I can't ... I am sorry , Baby but we can't hide either !" 

Was he giving up ? 

"Harper , we all have battle scars , suck it up ! And build a brace for yours . You can't give up on us ! No after that ! I swear Harper if you leave , we're done ! No more us , No more kiss , No more hug... We're done!"  He's looking at me , wondering what he should do . He shouldn't hesitate. 

"I'm sorry , Maha. I have too"  He says walking toward the door .. No he couldn't do that ! Evelyn left me and now Harper's leaving.. My boyfriend or My fake ex boyfriend, I don't even know what he was but now he's nothing.  I get up from the couch and look out the window . There is so memories flying around here , only Yesterday he was here with my aunt talking happily .. Now they're both gone , she should be here . She should be here by side to help me get through my life , no one had the right to take her away from me . No one. 

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Today is Sunday , Evelyn's funeral . I'm wearing a black dress , black heels and red lipstick ... I remenber how much she loved seeing me wearing red lipstick.. So it's very important for me . I go downstair to see Eric in a black tuxedo , he turns around and I could see tears in his eyes we don't even have to talk to understand each other , we jump into each other's arm.  

"You're beautiful , Maha.. Your parents would be so proud of you .  I know Evelyn was proud of you , she still is ... in our heart she'll always be there lookind down for us" He says ,there is now tears falling down on my cheeks  . As we arrive at the church , I see people wainting for us . I can recognize some of her coworkers  and I see Emma crying , we both run and hug so tightly , i feel like i can't breath anymore ... But at the moment I don't really care anymore , She looks at me I don't want her to apologize it only make it worse and she knows it , so she takes my hand and we head inside of the church.  

The preacher is saying prays , I can't very listen I don't believe in god , if he was here he wouldn't have made my life a living hell . "Please now we listen to Evelyn's niece , Maha Stevenson." I get up feeling my knees weak , and walk next to the preacher and take the microphone " I am not good for big speeches , I am just going to say that Evelyn was not my mother but she was the only person near it .. She was here for me when I felt down , she didn't had to leave she was only 38 ! , I've lost a lot of people in my life , now I can only count on my dear best friend  , Emma and  Eric , you're my father and I love you . " I look at Eric who is crying next to Emma , we were like daughter to him .. I lost my aunt , but I don't know what it's like to lose the person I've loved for so 15 years . 

But you lost Harper. 

I don't love harper ! He's a jerk , i don't want to do anythinh near him !