Forever Lasting

Another Day

Was it Just a Dream?
She still had the same thoughts, still the same pain and still self-harms herself in ways you could only imagine. She was forced to live with her grandparents. All because her abusive acholic father died in a bar fight late one night. She absolutely hated living with her grandparents, they didn't like her very much. They we're always yelling at her telling her it was her fault her mother killed herself and that her father died the way he did. So in her mind she has never had a reason to live because of how much blame she has always gone through. After many years of waiting she finally had a boyfriend that gave her every reason to be happy and so many reasons to live. They weren't close by distance but close by heart and mind. She finally felt something other than emptiness. She was so afraid it would never last but she tried to stay hopeful because this guy actually seemed to love her for whom she is instead of for what she looked like. She was very honest and open with him but still a lot of things quiet because she was afraid of how he would react. There was a little ago gap between him and her but she didn't really have much concern about it. Days had gone past since he had asked her out and she knew that he was something special... But she was ever so skeptical of what he would think of her for when they actually get to meet in person. Regardless of them talking and video chats over social media's. This guy was so surprising... He seems to genuinely care and not just fake that he does. Dispite the thousand or so miles they were apart in distance.  He actually made her forget about her past well most of it. One morning as she came down stairs for breakfast she quietly sat in her chair after saying good morning with a kiss on the cheek to each grandparent she began to eat. She had always had issues with people seeing her eat and eating in general so eating in front of her grandparents was a huge step. There was no "I love myself" or " I love this outfit on me" she focused on the number on the scale more than how she actually looked.  A few months had finally pasted and now it was time she got to see her boyfriend she so patiently waited for. She was so excited she could hardly stand waiting another minute. She had so many thoughts bursting through her head moments before meeting him in person. "what if he see me and turns tje other way", "what if this is the best day of my life?", "do I hug him and say hello or just awkwardly say hi?" She thought to herself.  The time came to meet in person at their desired location. She ran up to him and hugged him tightly... " I'm sorry!" 'She exclaims' apologizing for being excited fearing she already stepped bounds. He just chuckled as he just gently grabbed her and hugged her so she could feel that it was alright. The day went on and now nightfall had hit. She had promised to show him the stars from her roof top because it was her favorite thing to do when she was sad. So they had made their way up to the roof top to lay and watch the stars. A few hours had past of them just having the time of their lives so madly wrapped into each word each other has said.  She looked over at him and started to tell him about all the things that she has been through and all the things she thought was wrong with her. He let her finish what she was saying as he listened to her speak so harshly about herself. After she had finished speaking he exclaimed " You do know I think you are perfect in everyway right? I think you are more beautiful than every star in the sky that we have ever seen. I love you for you and I wouldn't change a single thing about you." At that moment she knew she would love him endlessly. "I love you" she said as they both leaned for the kiss they had both waited ever so patiently for. A few more months had past and she no longer cuts or thinks awful thoughts about herself. She actually loves life now and all thanks to her wonderful boyfriend who showed her she is perfect the way she is.
She loved how life was every bit of how things were going because now everyday is an adventure for her. She noe looks forward to the future and what it holds because life feels 'forever lasting' now that she feels loved.