accidental love » ethan dolan

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*skip school cause it's boring as hell*

i get home from school and clean my room. which basically means that i throw all my stuff into my closet. yes, i'm that type of person. 

i then change into different clothes, so that i look presentable. (pic above) 

i look in the mirror and decide that i look good, so i run downstairs just as the door bell rings. 

it's only 5:30. they must be early. 

i open the door and see Ethan and Grayson standing on my door step. 

how did i get so lucky?

i smile at them and invite them in. 

we walk to the kitchen so that i can introduce my momma to them. 

"Boys, this is my momma. Momma this is Ethan and Grayson." i say pointing to each of them.

she smiles at them and says hi. they smile back and politely say hello. 

then Ethan says "you have a lovely home, Mrs. Edwards."

"that's sweet..." she starts to say them looks at me for help 

"Ethan" i whisper

"that's sweet Ethan, but call me Miss Edwards." she says

i nudge her "momma." 

she looks at me then back at them "ok fine call me momma, but that's all"

i smile at her and look at the boys. they don't know what to say, so i decide to help them out.

"momma, we'll be in my room. call when dinner is ready." i say and pull Ethan's arm

we walk into my room and i close the door behind them. i turn around and face them.

they are both standing there awkwardly. "you can sit down, dumb butts." i say

they laugh and sit on the floor. i sit in front of them. 

"let's play 20 questions" Gray says

"but you already asked questions about me in my video." i say

"then let's ask deeper questions. like your deepest darkest secret type of thing." Ethan says

"fine" i say giving in

"ok i'll go first. what's something that you've never told anyone, or you haven't told a lot of people?" Gray asks

"Ethan you answer first" i say

he looks at me then nods his head "i'm pretty honest about a lot of things, but i haven't told anyone this. i like a girl a lot. i just met her a little while ago but i love every little thing about her." 

i try not to look sad because i like Ethan, a lot. i don't know why, but i just feel like we have this connection. i'm stupid for even thinking he would like me.

i look up, but i only look at Grayson cause if i make eye contact with Ethan, he'll know something is wrong. 

"ok." i say in a shaky voice "i use to have a boyfriend that would abuse me."

"like physically?" Ethan asks

i nod my head "he would hit, punch and kick me. one time he stabbed me with a knife. and another time h-he tried to..." i couldn't finish my sentence.

i broke down and started to cry. all the horrible memories that i've tried to keep hidden, came rushing back, all at once. someone lifted me into their lap. i really didn't care which one it was. all i needed was support.