Love at first sight

The morning after

I woke up to the sun I was used to but not the bed I was used to or the room I was used to.  A little panic rushed through me but then I was reassured with a soft yet firm arm around me, I turned to look at his face and he woke up with my small movement , his eyes opening to look into mine "good morning beautiful" he said and I replied. I looked around to quickly remember what had happened last night and although it all felt like a dream it was reality, we had gone all the way and I felt a little anxious "ney I need to go home" I whispered as I quickly shot out of bed and gathered my clothes and things back "Milena what are you doing? Come back over here you can't leave now" he worriedly shouted as quietly as possible in order to not wake anybody up and then he too shot out of bed after I fully dressed trying to console me. "Ney, my friend is at home alone, I have work in 3 hours and I shouldn't have even stayed over... What happened last night shouldn't have happened this early on in our relationship... I wasn't ready and now I feel awful for actually doing what I did" as I said this I saw his face drop and his soul sink which made the pain in my heart grow bigger "I'm sorry.. I love you" I said as I kissed him and left the room leaving him standing there.

Once I arrived home Georgio was on the phone to one of his clients at the kitchen bar drinking a smoothie and his face looked puzzled when he saw my pale face so he quickly asked to end his phonecall and get back to his client later. "Mila what's up?" He asked me to which I couldn't give a clear answer, I felt cold hearted almost as if I wasn't the same girl as yesterday , something has changed within me " Geo I think I just broke his heart" I said as tears welled up in my eyes. "What? Honey.. No why would you break neymars heart? That's not possible he loves you too much , I think you're just making the situation complex, why don't you just tell me what happened and I'll help you out huh?" He said while trying to help me. "It was al going great Geo, we had dinner I met his family and he proposed to me but then he begged me to stay the night and I did, I loved every second of being with him but then he insisted that we get intimate and I just couldn't resist but this morning I woke up feeling shattered and upset that I've done such a thing, I mean.. I wasn't ready" I explained as I tried to make sense but realised that I was only confusing myself and Georgio even more. "So wait ? Did you tell him all of this Mila?" Georgio concernedly asked me   To which I just started crying so he knew I told him "honey no offence but you can't sleep with someone and then tell them you feel shit about it, how do you expect him to feel after that" he said to me as Georgio never held back the truth and said things plain and uncoated.
"That's what's upsetting me the most geo! I upset him , I should not have told him and just let it be, he must think I'm an absolute psycho" I said as I felt dizzy again. "Milena , you don't look so good... Listen sweetie just lay down here and let's not talk about it - don't let this make you ill again" he said as he quickly put my feet up on the sofa and put a few cushions under my head and then rushed to the kitchen to get me some water. "In fact, why don't you take the day off from work?" He suggested but that reminded me that I had to go work so I quickly went and got ready for work, grabbed a breakfast bar and got in my car. Throughout the car journey I felt really upset and sick until I finally parked up in the hospital car park and just took a few seconds to compose my self. At this point I realised that I had made a huge mistake and just made a big deal over nothing , at the end of the day- this man had proposed to me and was serious so why had I felt the way I did? I thought to myself as I sighed heavily and got out the car and made my way up to my office where I set my laptop up and took a look through the files left on my desk. "It's gonna be a long day" I whispered to myself  as the my day begun.

*Neymar's PoV*
When I got downstairs my mom had prepared the breakfast just the way I like it "Bom día filho" she said as she lovingly smiled at me which I couldn't help but smile back at even though I was really upset , I sat down next to my dad and sister who were on their phones looking at things and we all caught up on things while eating breakfast "where's Milena?" Rafaela asked as she took a sip from her orange juice.
"Ah , Milena had to leave early as her friend is at her house alone from America and also she has work today. "Oh that's a shame, I really like her ney - wish she was here so I could get to know more of her" my sister said which made me happy yet upset at the same time wondering What if Milena doesn't love me anymore because she thinks I rushed things. When breakfast was over my dad went off into the office to get on with some nnconsultaria business and Rafa went outside to sunbathe so I stayed with my mom in the kitchen to help her clean and put things away "Mae? Can I ask for your advice on something although the it's really personal?" She looked up at me "of course filho? What is it you an tell me anything remember?" And I knew she would have the best advice for me "Mãe, Milena stayed over last night and I just couldnt resist being so close yet so far from her and I really wanted to be with her completely and even though she told me she was saving herself for marriage she couldn't resist too, however when we woke up this morning she said she felt bad about her actions and that she wasn't ready.. I don't k ow what to do Mãe , what if she hates me now?" My mom put down the kitchen towel in her hand and took a seat with me at the stools "ai meu deus filho , it's completely normal for Milena to wake up feeling that way if she's spent her whole life saying that she's going to save herself until marriage but you should also reassure her that you're not just any guy and even though you understand her morals of wanting to wait till marriage , you are serious with her and you are her fiancée.. Don't let her have a single bit of doubt in her mind, reassure her and try to put your own problems aside on this and focus on her.. She sacrificed her own promise for you and you should be on her side" this advice that my mom had just given me lightened my mood a lot more and I knew she was right, how could I be upset at Milena for doing something that was so important for her just for me? This girl loved me enough to break her own promise so I will show her that I am by her side. I quickly got my phone out and text Mila "Oi amor, shall we meet up for lunch as there's something I'd like to discuss" I sent the text and then while my phone was in my hand I thought of calling Carol again to hear Davi's voice as I missed him more than words could describe.
Me:"Oi Carol, is Davi back?"
C: "um, yes but he's in playing on his iPad"
Me: "ok.. Well can you give the phone to him then please?"
C: "I'm not sure if he wants to speak with you"
Me: "Carol what's wrong with you? Can you just let me speak to my son?!"
C: "why don't you sit and have a think about why your son might not want to speak to you Neymar?"
Me: "what on earth are you talking about ? I've never done anything to hurt or upset Davi? I love him more than anything, you know that!"
C: "so do you love him more than that new girl you've got? That Milena who you're planning to get married to??"
Me: "are you being serious? You're making my son hate me because I'm in love with somebody else?"
C: "Davi came home asking me when you and me where going to live together like Norma children's parents do, don't you get it Ney? Our son wants a Normal life!"
Me: "Carol we have been seperate for years, you were the one who didn't want me and now you're having this chat with me?"
C: "how foolish of me to think you actually started to love me back and that we were going steadily towards begin in over and having a family, and to think you spent so much time and attention on us yet it was all for nothing!"
Me: "Carolina... Don't do this- it wasnt for nothing, we have a son together, of course I'm going to respect my sons mother... I isn't know you had started to develop feelings for me, let me speak to my son please you know I love him , he's my most important possession in life"
C: "alright well, do you love your son more than that Milena and enough to come and devote yourself to your son and only your son?"
Me: " don't go there Carol , you're taking this too far"
C: "well, looks like you can't choose your son over Milena so that goes to show what a loving and caring father you are. You are to never speak to my son or me again until you choose us do you hear me!!"
~hangs up~
I try to dial back but the phone has been switched off. "Ai deus" I keep whispering to myself as I try to calm down and not think about how insane Carol had become. I could t keep it in any longer and punched the mirror making a massive smashing noise and leaving me wounded with shards of glass in my Crimson knuckles. With that, my whole family ran next to me and my mom was completely horrified "ai meu deus!! Neymar what have you done filho!! Are you okay?" She shrieked as she stepped over the glass and took my fist into her hand "we're getting you to a hospital right now" my dad demanded as he saw the blood pouring out my hand. "Não pai , I'm fine" I begged as I hated my family to see me in this situation.
"Ney what happened tell us? Is it Milena?" Rafa shouted at me waiting for me to give them a reason to why I got so mad.
"It's not Milena, it's Carol..." I said hopelessly.
"what has Carol done?" My mom asked
"She wouldn't let me speak to Davi , I knew something was up because whenever I called she kept making excuses and today she admitted that she loved me and thought I loved her back and that we should get back together because that's what Davi wants and when I told her I loved Davi more than anything she told me that if I could only prove that if I loved Davi enough to leave Milena and be with them, I love my son but I can't leave Milena Mãe ! Pai I love them both my heart is being torn apart like this! Help me what shall I do?" I cried " firstly were taking you to get your hand sorted out filho" my dad demanded again and we all went out into the big Audi Q7 to drive to the hospital "let's go to the hospital where Milena works" Rafa suggested and my dad accepted it , they asked me the name and typed it into the satnav as I looked away in pain.

*Milena's PoV*
"Penélope can you take these files back and bring me Señor Lopez's file please , make sure to include his most recent MRI scan results too please" I asked my assistant as I sat at my desk "of course Dr. Carvalho, anything else I can bring for you ?" She replied "no thank you , that's it" I said and she made her way out of my office. I checked my phone and there was a text from Neymar, my heart raced as I thought he would've hated me after what I said to him this morning, I checked the time and there was still 2 hours until lunch time which I seriously wanted to hurry up so I could get to explain. myself to him and we could be at peace again. Just as I took a sip out of my coffee there was a heavy knock on my door "Dr. Carvalho, your recent patient Mr. Santos and his family are here" Penélope said panicked and I worried somethings might be wrong "yes of course let them in Penélope!" I demanded as I got worries further "Milena, help us filha, his hand hasn't stopped bleeding" neymars mom said just as worried as me as Neymar stepped forward from behind his mother with a white sheet wrapped around his hand which was covered completely in blood. "Amor! What have you done" I yelled as I ran over to him and unwrapped the cover on his hand to see pieces of glass stuck in the skin and blood uncontrollably oozing out. I held on to him and helped him to a sink where first we could wash off excess blood and then I sat him down and knelt in front of him to remove the shards of glass. "Guys can we have some privacy" he said to his family with a painful expression on his face and they all quietly made their way out. I started taking the pieces of glass to which he occasionally moaned in pain "how did you do this ney? Is it because of what I said to you? .. If so I really didn't mean it like that, I guess I was anxious , I'm so sorry meu amor" I said as I felt awful for seeing him in such a state. He looked down at me and smiled at me with sorrow in his eyes "it's not your fault amor, I wholeheartedly understand you, I'm sorry for rushing you... There's something else.." He looked away as I noticed his eyes tearing. I removed all the pieces of glass and raised the hand to stop blood flow while applying pressure "what is it then? What could upset you so much that you cause harm to yourself?"
"I want to tell you everything, but I don't want to lose you" he said and a feared fell out of his sore eyes. This caused a pain in my heart, after I gave up everything for him, was he thinking of leaving me? I would be so broken and hurt and would lose hope in love forever. A deep sadness filled within me "Ney... No matter how bad it is , tell me" I managed to say without bursting into tears myself. The blood had stopped now and I wiped his hand with antiseptic wipes to which he couldnt even feel the pain anymore , as I bandaged his hand he just spurted out "I have to choose between you and my son Milena, I'm torn apart" he was biting his lip hard to not cry. At that point I felt just as torn as him but then I held on to his face with both of my hands "listen to me Neymar, pick your son, never leave your child behind , never put him in the situation I'm in right now , my parents denied me as there child because I didn't do one thing they wanted, always be there for Davi and I will respect you for this, you should go be with your son, I will never hate you for this - remember I love you, if that means for us to be apart then so be it" I carefully removed the ring from my finger which caused my heart to a he like never before "it was a beautiful dream , and now it's over " I said as I placed the ring in his bandaged hand and kissed him for the last time before he got up and  left my office with tears eyes...

Disclaimer- I have nothing against Carolina and this is purely for some drama within the book , hope you all enjoy this.