ON HOLD ~ Love On The Right Track (Sequel)

Chapter 7

Alayah POV

"Can we talk before we go in there?"

"What do you want to know ?"

" Why you didn't just tell me ." Dion said as we sat in his truck outside the doctor's office.

It's been four days since the blow up occurred and we haven't really had time to talk. Krista was around for three of those days, so I had to put on a strong face .

"Tell you what exactly ?"

"Everything. When and how you find out you were pregnant? What made you lose the baby? I want to know these things."

I turned in my seat to face him while taking a deep breath. "First let me start off by saying this isn't my first time being pregnant. I got reckless with this dude I was seeing about a little over four years ago."

"I didn't know you were pregnant. What happened?"

"No one but my mom did. And I couldn't tell Lyric because everyone knows what type of life your sister was having three or four years ago."

"True but happened to the baby ?"

"I had a miscarriage. And of course I was sad and hurt but at the same time I felt like God was giving me more time to get it together at the age of 19. Plus I wasn't in the best situation with dude so who knows what type of father my child would've had. You know ?"

"Yeah."

" But see it was different this time around. When I found out I was pregnant three weeks ago after I took a test I knew I was ready. I had talked to my mom about how I was going to surprise you and everything. I went to the doctor and found out I was 3 and 1/2 months pregnant. Which honestly I was surprised because I hadn't even made it that far in my last pregnancy. "

I tried to take another deep breath because I could feel myself building up tears. "That was until they told me I could experience again what happened to me the first time. A miscarriage. So I convinced myself that it would be better not to tell you unless I knew foreshore we would be having a child.

I didn't want to get your hopes up just to let you down in the end. I knew that would kill you because it nearly killed me the first time I experienced it. I was just going to take the L and never tell you about it. " I let all my tears spill over.

He lean over and pulled me into his arms. "I know this is hard but we'll get through it."

"I don't want to do this Dion. I want to walk in there and by the grace of God have them tell me that they were wrong. And that my baby is still in my stomach well and alive. Cause I don't want to do this at all."

Today is the day I have my D&C done. It's basically the same procedure as an abortion. I have to have one because I'm too far along in my pregnancy for the baby to just pass by like an early miscarriage.

Right about now my emotions are all over the place but what I can say is it  feels good to have Dion by my side for support. I didn't have that the first time around from anyone except my mom.

"We're going to get past this Alayah and when the time is right for us we will have kids."

"That's easy for you to say. You already have a child. I'm not doing this again. I feel like God has cursed me ."