Have you ever wondered what it's like to have your heart ripped out? Not by a person I mean. But by circumstance. Hi, that's my current mood right now. I'm upset. Not at anyone particularly. I'm just mad at life and the shit it puts me through. I really shouldn't say mad or upset either. I don't know exactly what it is that I feel. But its not positive that's for sure.
*Bing*
A text? From who? I slide my phone, and I see Tristan's name above the message. It's about frickin' time he texted. What does it say? My phone brightens up as it opens the bright white text conversation screen.
TRISTAN: Hey, I'm finally in Lincoln. Only took us goddamn forever for it to happen, but now we're here.
Finally. Good. I was worried he might never make it there at the rate it was going. I pull up the keyboard and reply.
ELIZA: Good, it's about time. XD You know, you have a phone so you can keep me updated on your progress right? lol
I laugh to myself before stopping to wonder if that sounded too bitchy or bossy. He messages back, not missing a beat.
TRISTAN: Shhhhhhhhhh ;) Don't worry about me alright? Worry about you. Speaking of which, looking forward to school tomoro?
I smile, but only halfheartedly. I didn't want to even think about what Senior year might be like without Tristan. He's my best friend, and he means a lot to me because of that. I pull up the keyboard again.
ELIZA: Ehhhh not really. I don't ever really look forward to school ya know? And what about you? How do you feel about going to school in a new town? :/
I sit with the screen open as I watch and wait for a reply back from him. Sometimes he's quick and sometimes he takes forever. I get a little nervous. What if he doesn't miss me, or looks forward to a new school year in a different town? Then his message comes up.
TRISTAN: I'm nervous about it. I hate not being in the same town as I've always been. I miss everyone and everything in Redmond.
There he goes being vague again. What does he mean by everyone? Does that include me? If so, does he miss me any differently than his guy friends or not? I begin to type another message.
ELIZA: Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I was there...
No no no. Too forward. I don't know what he'd say to that. I delete the message, and look at my empty slate. I can't let my feelings ruin our friendship. We're best friends but I don't think he thinks of me that way. I type a more refined message.
ELIZA: Well try to think positive about it. Its the last year so after this you can go wherever you want.
That's better. I sit again and wait, and this time I play with the small stuffed panda that I have sitting on my desk. I need to not worry about guys. Guys cause me stress and depression. I hear my phone go off in my lap. I pull it up.
TRISTAN: You and my mother both said that lol. Well it's fine, I'll be a big boy about it and get over myself. Anyhow, I have to quickly finish temporarily setting up my room. I'll text you tomoro after school. Goodnight Eliza.
Ahhhh I hope I can just take that at face value. I toss my phone onto my bed before leaping from my roll-y chair to my bed. As I said, I shouldn't worry about boys. They'll be the death of me I swear. But I can't help but wonder, what will it be like without his presence?
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Moving To Town
RomanceThe breathtaking scenery of Sacramento, California is almost as breathtaking as the moment when you find and realize your in love. Tristan Sheehan doesn't know what it's like to fall in love, but after moving to Sacramento and experiencing it's brea...