the real me

"It will get better"

When I tell people that my life is hellacious they don't really get it. They think every once in a while a little bad thing happens, but that's not the case. I've dealt with life throwing shit at me almost everyday, now sometimes there is a good day every once in a while, but the majority of my days have shitty stuff happen. I've been through pretty traumatic things, and nobody realizes that. They think it's nothing. I'm told oh things will get better, but honestly they won't. I've lived my life for 16 years, I know what goes down in it. I could tell you everything I've saw,had to do, and everything I've had done to me, but honestly not many will be able to handle it. I'm tired of having to tell someone that I can't just move on from everything, it's so much shit that they don't even know about. It literally has made me furious just talking to someone who tells me it'll get better. Yes I know they may not understand the background I'm coming from, but still. If I talk to you about my life and you tell me it'll get better one day, I believe I'd have to stop talking to you.