the real me

my happiness

The past month has been pretty life changing. I fell in love with a boy, and I thought things were gonna be different this time. But I was wrong. He turned out to be just as shitty as all the other guys that have been in my life. I loved him so much and I don't even know if he loved me. He would tell me he loved me all the time, but at the end of our relationship he acted like he had never said he loved me. He started acting weird and different like he didn't wanna talk. Just a bunch of things happened and I thought I wasn't gonna be able to handle it. I cried my eyes out over him, but now I'm okay. I've realized I can't keep having other people making me happy. I can't rely on someone as my happiness. I need to be happy before I love someone, and that's my plan from now on. If I am
Not happy then I cannot love someone because I will be just using them to make me happy for the moment. And then when they leave I am not happy anymore, so that has to change. I am working on myself and my happiness and so far it's going great. I'm finding myself again, and making myself happy.