Here I am driving home again, it's the same routine, wake up, go to work, go see Andy then come back home. Its midnight and there's barely anyone on the road at this time, Andy hasn't changed , he still gives me the blank stares and the silent treatment , if only he'd speak to me. In my depth of thought I hear my phone start to ring.
'God who's calling me at this hour'
Although I know exactly who's calling me, its CC, it's always CC he just doesn't seem to leave me alone ever since the incident with Andy. I know he likes me but he wont take no as an answer and insists on coming by all the time. I don't answer hoping that will be the end of it so I can go to bed and try getting some sleep for a change unlike every other night.
It takes me almost an hour to get home from the hospital, sometimes I wonder if its with it but then I think about those beautiful blue orbs filled with sadness and I cant help myself but go back there to him...to my angel.
I just pull up into my driveway and surprise surprise there is CC's car there in the driveway as well and there is sitting on my porch. I sigh as I stare at him and slowly get out of the car.
'What are you doing here CC?'
'I came to see you Ash, you're never around and we are all worried about you'
'We or you? Jake and jinx know I m busy with Andy and actually visit him with me, I never see you visiting Andy despite you say you two where good friends, you don't really care about him or anyone but yourself, just leave me alone I m not in the mood for you right now'
I push past CC and start to unlock my front door as he grabs my wrist and pulls me back.
'You know I care about Andy Ash, how could you say I don't, its just I care for you more then him and I just wish you'd give in to what you really want'
He slowly runs his hand up my arm trying to pull me closer until I come to my senses and push him away from me.
'NO! Go home CC I don't want you, I want Andy....I want my little Angel home!'
I don't know what possessed me to run into the house crying but I did, leaving CC just standing out there on his own, I couldn't stand talking to him anymore he was just making me feel so confused, some days I will admit I do want CC but I keep thinking that's just because he is here and able to see unlike my angel who isn't here....what do I do?
I lock my front door and chuck my bag on the floor throwing my phone on my bed as I slowly strip off and head into the shower. I turn it on nice and hot and stand under the water, letting the stress of the day and night fall away, leaving me with a little bit of release, I decide to sleep naked as I fall onto the bed exhausted, checking my phone one more time seeing 4 missed calls from CC and throwing it onto my bedside table.
'Why won't he just leave me alone?'
