Your voice,
Your skin.
The way you said my name,
The way you got a cute little smile on your face when i said something silly.
Those were all the signs that made me tell myself you were in love,
And well I was too.
That was the stupidest mistake I could of made,
I let you ruin me.
I gave you the power to destroy my soul,
But I shouldn't have done that I should of protected myself.
But truth be told,
All I ever cared about was making you happy.
So torturing myself was no worry,
I didn't mind it as long as you were smiling.
Your smile was the most precious sight I could of ever set my eyes on, and I let that one sight cloud all of my judgement.
Soon enough you left just like the rest, you promised me otherwise but I learnt a long time ago not to trust in others words.
but the one thing I regret was allowing you to know me, know the things that made me tick, made me laugh and the things that broke me.
Because soon enough you would use them against me, and you did, you became everything you said you wouldn't.
I loved every inch of you no matter how ruined you thought you were, I LOVED YOU.
but the twist was she was the only one on your mind, you filled me up with a false sense of comfort and care, you made me think I was important to you but I never was you were willing to get rid of me at the click of her fingers.
so she clicked her fingers, you came running back and left me to cry and slowly kill myself with my own thoughts.
there is one thing that I wish, I wish I never let you into my heart, because that has ruined me.
I am not the same, I can not think of myself the same way, I genuinely just feel worthless for letting someone as pathetic as you into my life just to sit there and find ways to ruin me.
I hope you realise how happy I made you, I hope you realise I was what you needed because when you do realise this, I wont be here anymore, I wont be your door mat anymore, I will be happy and you will realise how amazing the girl you lost was.
and I honestly hope it breaks you, I hope it makes you think twice about absolutely everything you do, because you had me feeling like this when I did nothing wrong, you did you ruined me, so I'm sorry but I hope you suffer...
but most of all I hope you do find happiness in her because even though you have ruined me and destroyed me I will not allow that to delude the fact that I will always care about you, I will not always be here for you to step on and hurt even mor
e but I will always care.
