Watergirl

Chapter_10 Overthinking

•Hilary

"I'm here lying on my bed just thinking.

I can't stop thinking about what happened at Calvin's place. I can't believe he was such a jerk as to try and steal my first kiss. I almost let myself do such a dumb thing.

  I need to rest get some sleep and talk to Kylie tomorrow. If it wasn't for Kylie I wouldn't have gone to the park to soothe my mind. If she hadn't put those words in my mind I wouldn't have needed me time. That with Calvin wouldn't have happened...

But I can't blame her for it all...

I stopped to talk to him. I asked him if I could leave with him instead of calling Olivia.

     It was totally and obviously optional to ask him. It was optional to play with Calvin. I didn't have to do any of that. But if Olivia hadn't left. If she hadn't forgotten about me. It's all Calvin's brother fault he came he is the one that drives.

No.
no.
No.
Hilary stop blaming everyone. Tomorrow I actually do need me time. But I'll just fill up my brain with even more thoughts. I can't keep pressuring myself like this. I have to actually socialize I need to take my mind off this.

Wait a second I don't have any time to socialize, tomorrow summer camp begins.

Tomorrow I will see Kylie against my will. I'll see Calvin there too. And Francesca with her stupid "crew" or whatever she calls those obnoxious girls that follow her. Francesca is a total makeup guru and girls follow her for romance tips. But it's only ten people per group it's a limit. So I'll be with Kylie and everyone else will be lucky if they have more than one friend there since during the school year we are 40 students.

Just to think how awkward it'll be when I see Calvin tomorrow.

I also have to tell Kylie or else she'll get mad it's not a bad thing she's just a grumpy person.

I wonder what teacher I got. I wonder who is gonna be there. I hope many of my friends are there. I hope I don't have any summer enemies. Those are the worst. I really want pizza. Why do I want food so much right now. Oh right. It's only 5 pm. Mom is probably making her homemade baked pizza.

I'm so hungry I could eat two whole large pizzas but only chicken pizza. I'm gonna go eat pizza"

(" in between these are Hilary thinking)

I begin to go downstairs and there I see Olivia on a phone call and she's red and angry. I head to the kitchen to avoid anything. And there I see mom watching the pizza being baked. "Mom?" I slowly say not to scare her. "Yes sweetie?, you're  up?" She responds.

I answer her question actually "I never fell asleep just been thinking mom". Suddenly Olivia frustratedly says "UUUUGHHHH". She walks towards the kitchen sits next to me and starts ranting about how Elliott (her on and off boyfriend) decided "it" was finally over he wants nothing to do with her. After it seems like 10 minutes of endless ranting I finally say " if he doesn't care he probably doesn't even care about your feelings he probably doesn't care what you have to say about him I DONT CARE SO JUST SHUT UP" Olivia just stares at me and says OMG wow you're just a mini me aren't you?" I look totally confused. She continues "how you almost kissed Calvin is the exact same way me and Elliott began but he was never sure that almost kiss meant something let me tell you something it DOES, he just won't realize it soon enough and leave you hurt!" I began to cry and yell "at least I know that now I won't like him now or ever and I'm so sure I'm not like you" Olivia gets up and leaves more frustrated than before.

I get up and say "forget the pizza" went to my room and actually fell asleep instead of thinking overthinking.

Mom ate the pizza with dad and saved us a slice.

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A/N

Hope you liked the chapter don't overthink like Hilary it never gets you good places. Have a nice day.