Can you live with people who won't like you around?
Well, I always experience that, ans when I say always, I mean everyday.
Everyday is a perfect struggle to survive until afternoon.
Fce students, deal with work, shut your mouth when a complaint is being brewed. Everything about everyday seem to be shaded with black and grey when I prefer fancy colors like yello and orange.
Or yellow orange.
My work as a private school teacher is challenging. I don't usually use the term "hard". Maybe that's because I can stand on it.
Just as I can't stand talking to people with make up faces.
I sometimes feel those moments when I feel unwanted.
Teacher Je is not around anymore, so, yes, I am the only unwanted person around here.
Today went well, though. Speaking of wanting, my kids won most parts of the pageant. I think that's amazing.
They are making names for themselves, for God's glory.
I sometimes feel and ask myself whether I am wanted by these kids, though.
Tasting how my last year's advisees made me feel insufficient, I am in a constant trauma ... and offensive side.
Can you blame me? Nevah.
I am reminding myself to never bee too close. Close enough to burn.
Just in case.
I don't like that feeling anymore.
I still hope I am wanted, even at the very least.
