MyBabyImpala's Journal 3

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So today was Suicide Prevention Day. When we got into class me and my friends were automatically triggered by looking at the smart board (which listed symptoms of depression) and I p much fit the whole list (the only reason why I isolate myself is bc of one of my dogs). Like, I know I'm depressed. Probably already hit the 2 year marker.

And then my teacher paused the video, then she was talking about how you can be depressed for no reason because of disorders like being bipolar, and then she said that stuff can be passed on from parents.

My dad's bipolar. That's p much the whole reason why my schedule changed. And like, I'm his kid. I mean, I always felt that that could have been passed down onto me, and now I'm actually considering it more. I've never had a real reason for being depressed. I usually state something, like being lonely. I don't think it's worth worrying about since I don't act/think I'm insane. I think.

-Fatigue
-Always wants to sleep/can't sleep
-Starves self
-Energy loss
-Lost fun doing things I used to love

Hhhh.