"Alam mo Zoe, di ko talaga magets kung bakit nagkaganyan si Miggy sa akin." Ayan na naman ako sa endless rants ko about Miggy and Candice. Nandito kami sa kwarto ko. It has been 2 weeks since our little fiasco. Pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako kinakausap nung dalawa. Ganun na ba kalaki kasalanan ko sa kanila. Nagsorry na ako. Pinaulit-ulit ko pa nga kasi di satisfied sina Raf at Sef.
"Hmm.." Yan lang ang sagot niya sa akin! Yan lang! Kahit kanina pa ako nagsasalita sa kanyan. Nakatutok kasi sa cellphone niya eh. Sino bang katext nito?
"Zoe! Pumunta ka ba dito para makipagtext lang kung kanino? Pwede mo yang gawin sa bahay nyo. Dun ka na lang kaya." Nakangusong himutok ko.
"Ayaw." Napapalatak pang sabi niya. Namumuro na sa akin yang phone niya. Magiisang linggo ko na ding binabalak kung paano ko madidispatya yang lintek niyang phone!
"Kung ayaw mo pala ng kausap dapat di ka na pumunta dito." Sumandal siya sa headboard ng kama ko.
"..."
"That's it! I'm so done with this Villegas!" Hinablot ko sa kanya ang phone niya. Believe me nagulat ako nang makita ko finally kung anong pinagkakaabalahan niya doon. "Zombie Tsunami? Seriously?!"
"Yea. Seriously." Tamad niyang sagot na humiga pa sa kama ko. "Uninstall it."
"Huh? Bakit?"
"Wala na akong ibang magawa maliban sa laro na iyan eh. I've been neglecting a lot of things. So sige, i-uninstall mo na yan." Sabi niya nang nakatingin lang diretso sa kisame.
"Ikaw na lang. Tinatamad ako." Sagot ko tapos humiga na rin katabi niya. Inabot ko sa kanya ag phone niya.
"So, Migs and Candice are still up for the ignoring game?" Inayos niya ang upo niya at kinuha ang gitara sa tabi niya. Lagi niyang dala iyan di ko lang alam kung bakit. Nang maayos na niya ang hawak sa gitara ay sumulyap siya sa akin. Tumango ako.
"They'll come around." She strummed her guitar a bit. Kinakapa niya siguro ang tono ng gusto niyang itugtog. Nang tila satisfied na siya ay kinuha niya ang phone niya, set it up in front of us. "Moving on is not just a piece of cake."
I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said I'll never let it go
When all the shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
Napapikit ako habang nakikinig sa kanya. Is this a fucking dream? I have never thought of hearing Z perform in front of my very eyes. It is surreal. It makes me feel as if I wanted to surrender the life left on me.
Don't you dare look out your window
Darling everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone
I opened my eyes and looked at her straight to her eyes. I saw a promise in her eyes. A promise I would surely hold on to. I will believe. Keep on believing. In her.
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
"Zoe, who'd you be? Who are you going to be in my life? Would it be?"
"Shhh." She said, smiling again.
Ohhh..ohhh.. Lala
Ohh..ohhh.. Lala
Just close your eyes
Again I closed my eyes feeling a hand on my eyelids. She removed it continued playing and I felt her move. I guess she changed position?
You'll be alright
Mas lumapit ag boses niya sa akin. And I felt something touched my forehead, that made me open my eyes. Her forehead on mine. With a small smile on her face she looked at me, her eyes intensified by I do not know what emotion.
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
I finished the song by crossing the little distance between our lips. And when my lips met hers. I felt a thousand emotion burst within me. I felt as if I have been waiting for that all my life.
I moved my lips on her tasting the oh so sweet life on her. Those bloody red lips seemed like the forbidden apple to me. And just like how a weak human reacts, I too a bite on it. As if my life depend on it.
How could someone taste so sweet and heavenly make you feel like drowning yourself in the pits of hell? How?
Catching our breaths we move apart. Fire obviously on our eyes, but I see hesitation within her. She's not ready yet. So am I. We were lost souls who found comfort in each others arms. Should we or not?
I traced a finger on her lips while licking mine. She's going to be my sweetest downfall.
"I.. Uhm.."
"Speechless aren't we Ledesma?" She giggled. "One of your few lost-for-words moments?"
"Uhm no. I mean. Yes. God! I'm sorry Zoe!" I exclaimed without thinking. She was obviously surprised with what I said for a second and void of emotions, again, the next second.
"You don't say sorry after kissing someone, Ledesma. You don't do something and regret afterwards. You don't play fire with fire if you don't wanna be burned. You do not cross my boarders and take a coward step back after."
What the serious fuck did I just do?! I messed it up again!
"Zoe! Wait!" I ran after her. Buti na lang nasa may baba pa lang siya ng hagdan. Tumigil siya pero nanatiling nakatalikod sa akin. "I am sorry for saying sorry Zoe! I'm a coward, yes! I don't know how to handle these fucked up emotions you've awaken in me. God! I don't even know what this is. But please, I don't want to live in the dark again." I shouted. I saw her shoulders stiffened upon hearing what I said.
"You are the only light I hold on to Zoe. You are my sun. And I can't let you leave me. I just can't." Slowly I went down the stairs and stopped right behind her. I slid my arms around her. Embraced her tightly. "Please Zoe. Don't leave me. I will be brave. I'll know what this is in time. Just give me time and stay." Truth be told, I have never been so scared my whole life.
I was never scared of the screaming, pain and loneliness. I was never scared of being alone after my parents decided to leave each other. Nobody stays forever. People will come and go. I was never scared until Zoe came.
I am scared of the pain of losing her.
I am scared of the thought that I am never gonna see her again.
I am scared of the loneliness I'd be dealing once she walks out my life.
I am scared of losing her touch.
I am scared of being hurt.
I am scared.
"I am sorry for almost walking out Kyle. I'll never let you go. I promise. Whatever this is, we will stick together okay? You are tattoed on me now and tattoo never leave one's skin right?"
I felt tears fall from my eyes.
I remember tears streaming down your face when I said I'll never let you go...
A|N: Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift.
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