A Pinch of Reality

I Shall Not Fall

PART 1

He stood there. Motionless. I could see from the corner of his eyes that he was staring. Straight at mine. But still motionless.

What was he doing? What was he thinking? Was there another meaning to the stare that he gave me? I remain silent. The thought of him staring made me feel something I despised - love.

I hate the fact that I was falling for this guy. I can't explain how I despise this emotion very much.

I will not let myself fall for this stupid guy.

His eyes were meeting my eyes for approximately 10 seconds, neither of us said a word. We remain speechless. As I continue to stare and imagining fantasies and writing a little scenario of things I truly wanted to happen involving us.

Dang it I need to stop this insensible thought of mine.

We could go to overseas college together, he would take the major he wants and I could take mine. Arrange our lecture schedule exactly the same so we will meet every day -well except during lecture hours. That's the time I will miss him dearly.

What the hell was I thinking?! This 'love life scenario' should stop.

My brain kept wanting me to think about him. I resist the urge to stop this thought and continue to day dream.

Where were we? Oh yeah.

We could get our own apartment and rent his room closest to each other and live there, just the two of us. Spend the cold and stormy nights in front of the fireplace resting on his shoulders and drinking hot coco. When the weather's fine we could go on a hike or a stroll in the park would be just fine and he would buy me ice cream from an ice cream parlor or maybe a red balloon from a guy who sells them on the streets.

But wait, was he even a college student?
What if he had a wife? What if he's a father? I need to be realistic....

I could stare at that beautiful eyes all day if I want to. But the odds were not in my favor. He looked away turning his head slightly to avoid my gaze.