REGRETS

R E G R E T - 1

Aughh! Finally. Our class was finally dismissed. I have to go home early or else my step-father  will scold me again. I hate his husky voice because it sounds like a monster. If you're in my situation, you'll definetely froze.

I was in a hurry walking along the hallway when someone called me.

"Hey Timothy! Can I talk to you for a minute?" She said seriously. And there she is. My first love standing infront of me.

Is this it? Will she say he love me too? Is she gonna admit? Or it is only a part of my dream. A dream that will never come true. A dream that doesn't exist.

"I just wanna tell you something..."

Tell? Is this really it?

"W-what is it?" I said nervously.

She looked directly straight into my eyes. There! I feel like i'm melting.

"I like..." I like you? She like me? Really?!

My heart is beating fast and i can't stop sweating cold. I was full of chance and hope that she will say she love me too... I was full of chance that we will grow old together just like what i'm dreaming of ever since.

But suddenly, all that thoughts disappear when i heard this...

"I like Xander. Ever since. Can you help me to talk to him. I always get extremely nervous whenever I talk to him. So I promise this time that all of my nervousness will disappear and will be replace of happiness... So would you help me?"

I know. I know that she can't love me back. But i'm still hoping. Even though ftom the very start, I know that I already lost in the game. She told me when I confessed to her my true feelings almost three years ago. I still can't forget the words that she let go that time.

"Sorry Timothy but I can only love you as a friend."

Well...

I guess it's time to move on...

I guess it's time to find new love...

I guess it's time to forgot all the efforts that i've been doing to her...

I guess...

It's time...

I sighed heavily and avoid to cry that is imminent to fall down. And said..

"S-sure!" I answered with matching a fake laugh to show her that I'm okay.

F*ck! Of all the people that he would like-- or love rather, why my brother?

"Really? Is it okay to you? But it is okay if you don't accede. Maybe because..." She said shyly while scratching his nape. Even if she didn't mention, I know what she means.

"Haha! It's okay. It is almost three years ago. Don't worry, I already moved on." I lied. And then smiled to convince her. I'm the best actor! Where's my award?

"Oh really? Thank you very much!" She said gladly. She suddenly hug me and I almost fall down. Apparently, my loneliness was gone and I'm beginning to hope again. Tssk! I'm so stupid.

Just like what I've said, I help her to talk to my brother that he likes. Even if my heart is not willing, I still did it for the sake of her happiness.

"Sorry dude. I know you still love Therese but... It is okay to you that I'll court her? It is okay to you? Aren't you gonna get mad?" Xander asked.