What can you do when you can't sleep
What can you do when you just randomly wake up in the night
Having too much dope
To get your mind off the demons inside
Just to make them go away for a while
Or you're messed up enough
to not even notice them
Even when you know
they are there
You pretend
they're not
Watching as much tv as you can
because
you know that movies will always have a happy ending
But you know reality is much different
so you try to create this illusion
to escape reality
If it's sitting on the couch all day
watching as much TV as you can
Or if it's smoking twice a day,
Or drinking all day
Or playing video games all day
Or taking sleeping pills to sleep
Or just cutting to release the pain,
Anything to get your head out of reality
Because the only thing fucking you up the most
Is reality;
Reality is something nobody wants
Nobody needs
Just pain, constant pain in a world where nobody wants to be
What can you do when the only thing that hurts is reality
They said "destroy what destroys you"
I guess that means destroying myself
Because
in RëãlïtY
demons
only live
in your head
And
the only way
to end it,
is to end yourself
Anything
to get away from reality ---
