Ben X Reader

Why?

(Narrator) Where we left off!!!!!
We are finally here at the beach yaay i can not wait to go swimming omg the beach house looks amazing!😃
Time to go pick my room i run up stairs and run into the biggest room up there and started unpacked everything i found my razor i haven't cut myself in a while i will start my bad habit up again just when i was about to cut myself someone came barging into the room laughing so I turn around and see.....Ben he saw what I was doing and slapped my razor out of my hand and slapped me across my face and called for slender.
(Ben p.o.v)
I got all my stuff out of the car and I went to find a room when I got inside I heard jeff yelling at masky for using his knife to cut cheesecake and I started laughing and heading upstairs  to find a room I opened the door and saw (yn) sitting on the floor unpacking her bags but the was somthing wrong with her I looked at her hand and she was holding a razor  without thinking I slapped the razor out of her hand then slapped her in her face and yelled for slender I looked back at (yn) and there was a red hand spot where I had slapped her and she was trying to hold back tears and she said "why? Why is it when I am around you I always get hurt know matter what?" And then she started crying hard really hard and of course of slenders timing it made it seem like I made her cry.
A little vocie inside my head said "Well wasn't it your falt it is always your falt you are the one that cheated on her broke her heart then slapped her today wouldn't she be better off without you to hurt her and hold her back??"  It's true isn't all I ever do is hurt people I should just stay away!!!

Hello everyone I am back and ready to write so if you have any suggestions for a book leave a comment and sorry for it being so sort I haven't wrote anything in a year well it at least feels like one soooo bye-bye proxies unicern out!!!🦄🦄🦄