Lost Love (Editing)

The Harsh Truth

Ok so it has been 6 weeks now since I found out that I... I have a brain tumor that would kill me in 7 weeks and a week after that I went in because I was coughing up a lot of blood and the doctor said I also had lung cancer. So what does it mean, i have a week to live. I just cant tell her it would kill her. I cant do it to her. I have already lost 64 pounds in 3 weeks. No matter what I do I cant gain the weight. I shaved my head because I thought my hair would start falling out. I have been haveing massive headache's. I dont know how to tell her. But I know she neededs to come back home before I have to go. I will ask her to come with me today.
"Hey baby?" I said
"Yea?" she said
"There is something you and I have to do before I um... Have to go away for a while"
"Ok what is it and where will you be going?"
"Baby i dont want you to worry about me right now! Ok? We need to go home!"
"But we are home!"
"No I mean we need to go back to bellpass! I need you to remember the greatest times you and I had. Rather than the horrible memories! Please sweetheart! Just come with me. I will have to go very soon!"
"Hunter are... Are you leaving me?"
"No Ahslee I love you I would never leave you its just I have to go away for a while ok? Please trust me!"
"Ok" she said nervously

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After driving for 6 hours. We got to her house! She fell to the ground and cried! I rant to her and asked her what happened. She said "Im sorry! There is something else I didnt tell you remember my sister. My dad would go and get drunck and come home and try to beat her but i made her hid when he would come home and he would beat me and get really close to me, touching me. I blamed myself for that and the 5 boys. I would scream and cry and he would beat me more! And to think that could have been my sister who was 10 when I was 12 thats not fair to her. I dont know what happened to her when I left but I just hope she is ok he abused me and blamed me for my mother dying. Some nights I felt like he was going to beat me to death. I never told him when he was sober. I didnt rhink he would believe me. My sister and I kept quite. I loved her and... And I need her. I need to find her when we get back!" she said wiping tears from her eyes.
"Baby, why didnt you tell me none of it was your fault. Please! Dont blame yourself for what happened! Its not like you wished for it to happen! But it did! I also have to .... Tell you something!"
"What is it?"
"Well... I ... I just wanted to say that... I love you!" I just couldnt tell her, not yet. We walked to the school which was permintly closed but we snuck in. We went in to a class room and I sat her on a desk and hugged her.
"Ashlee there is something I have been keeping from you! I have a tumor and um... Thats not it! I have lung cancer."
She pushed me away hoped off the desk and ran I trued to follow her but I couldnt find her after 30 minutes I found her laying down om the ground kinda far from the school she was crying! I walked up to her and picked her up bridle style and sat down with her in my lap all said was "this is where it happened!" she struggled her way out of my lap and ran! I followed her and she ran home. She was in her parents room when I got there she was holding a picture and crying. " you dont know what happened to her do you?"
"No you never told me"
She died of cancer, brest cancer, she had a tumor in her brest that formed in to cancer. Please just go! I cant handle another death!"
"Im so sorry" I walked out the bedroom I was crying.
Why did this have to happen to me! I love her! I dont deserve this! God please help me!