I hate you.
Not because of good reasons,
But because of how you make me feel.
I have these butterflies that constantly fly,
This smile I have, it's always there.
These feelings...that you bring.
I hate you because of them.
You were able to knock down my walls,
Which took me years to build.
I built a cast around my heart,
Determined to keep it safe.
You make me feel as if the sun was built by you,
To keep me thinking that this warmth and light is everlasting.
I love you.
I hate you.
I LOVE you.
But I hate you.
It's this neverending cycle
That plagues my mind and heart.
I love that you make me feel so good about myself,
But I hate you because you are able to make me feel like that.
It is as if I finally found my Savior out of this pit of Hell
I call my mind.
My Savior.
My Salvation.
My Heaven.
But I know it isn't true.
We will never be together.
And my heart grieves for that.
I want to be by your side.
I want to be the one who shares your laughs,
Your pain,
Your joys,
And your love.
Only problem?..
You don't date girls like me.
