Sacrifices

Chapter 18

Bea's POV

Good morning, World!

Buti pa si Deanna may lovelife na.. Ang bilis nga eh. Wala pa silang label pero nang liligaw si Deanna kay Pongs.

Told ya, Bae yan eh.

Ka-roommate ko parin si Deanna dito sa rest house ni Kim. Wala lang. Gusto lang namin.

Hayyy. Aaminin ko, I miss Jho.

Tinignan ko naman yung picture niya sa phone ko.

Gosh. I miss her a lot.

"I miss you." -Me

"Hmmm. Ate Bey?" -Deanna

"Why?"

"You miss her?"

"Y-yeah?"

"You love her?"

"I loved her. Loved."

"Nawala na ba yung sparks?"

"I guess so."

"Ate Bey!!!"

"What?!"

"You're not sure."

I am really not sure.

"Well, yes."

"Satingin ko meron pa eh."

"Meron pa ang alin?"

"Meron ka pang feelings for ate Jho."

Fuck the what?

"Deanna, NO."

"Ate Bea, YES!"

"HELL NO,DEANNA!"

"Bahala ka jan, Ate Bey. Balita ko may nang liligaw daw kay ate Jho eh. Hmm. Ay oo nga pala! Si Marci. Sinagot na--"

"SINAGOT NA NIYA YUNG TOTOY NA YUN?! TANG INA NANDITO BA YUN?! SILA YUNG DAHILAN NG UNANG HEART BREAK KO EH!"

Ay.. Napasobra yata..

"A-ate Bey. Nakwento na sakin ni ate Kianna yung nang yari. And may kumakalat na balita sa campus na sila na daw.."

Ang...SAKIT.

"Ano? Masakit ba?" Pahabol pa niya.

"S-sobra..."

"Ay sandali. Mag emote muna tayo dito."

Kinuha niya naman yung phone niya tapos nag patugtog

I HATE YOU, I LOVE YOU

"Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go