When She's Gone

Winner #9

Love?
I wanna say I know what that is but I'm afraid I'll be wrong.
As the darkness eats away at my already tainted mind my thoughts get cloudier.. But then I think of him..

His smile and the laugh that soon follows after.
His walk and his speed as he runs against the wind
His warmth as he wraps me with his arms engulfing me in a hug.
His soft skin as I cuddle near him..
The light is back and I start smiling a genuine smile.

But just as the light Seeps in, the memories of how he hurt me come back.
The way we argued.
The way we fought.
The way he walked away after the confirmed break up..
When he said I love you.. It made me wonder if he meant it..

But still when I think of him I smile and my stomach does little flips. Is that love? I wonder this as the battle between light and dark consume my body. Half is illuminated by a glorious light and the other... The other is engulfed in darkness.

The worst part is..
There's nothing I can do but wait until one side rules everything..
Let winner take all.