The Diary of Mei 2

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tuesday, august 30th, 2016 12:00am

hello i am not dead

dont mind me just passing along here trying to move on

lol ive actually been reaaaally bored and a little ish busy so i wasnt able to like yknow... update...

its been rough tbh
trying to move on
but im pulling through

im keeping myself busy to stop thinking about him
its kinda tough
but im doing alright

i kinda sorta spent 5mins crying just now after sending him a message after finding out he actually moved on

dont mean to rant but like
i know he loved me and all, but he moved on so fast?????
it actually hurts, like i can feel the fucking pain in my heart

but i guess it was less painful than the actual breakup :/

honestly...
i never thought it would be THIS difficult to get someone off of your mind; to actually MOVE on..

its pretty hard ngl

*sighhhhhh* please save me from the depths of hell called my inner thoughts.

i should not be up at this time. its not good for my brain and thoughts.

its like when you get drunk and start crying and venting out all your inner emotions about that one person who broke your heart or vise versa.

gaochskxhskd

please fucking save me

i wish i could like... mechanically take out thoughts of him from my brain.

..maybe i did make a mistake..

im literally doing everything i can to forget him, tbh.
i really did love him.

i hate to doubt but, did he really love me?
*punches self... literally*
of fucking course he did. jesus christ why am i like this

my head hurts now..

im gonna go..

-mei