updates about me

i know what people say but....

People always tell me I have so much to live for but I have a hard time believing it latley

I have the above knife in my room and I stare at it I have yet to use it (I threw my old one out wouldn't cut) but ive been seriously thinking about how much better things would be without me why do u guys care so much about a piece albino shit like me what good am I when all I do is make shit worse sure yes I've made maybe 3 people happy my gf and two others but iv fucked up more peoples lives even people on Twitter and twitch ignore me like i dont exsist I'm not part of the krinx family just a waste of space so why do u care 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I just wanna die so I won't be a problem any more 😭😭😭😭😭 *picks up knife and is typing with one hand from here on out*