Hey guys, sorry for not updatig an actual part, ill do that after i post this. So today has been one of the worst days of my life... Most of you probably know that inwas in homeschool last year at it took me like 4 long ass months to get back into my main high school and well now my complex is going under new management and i might have to move 1-2 hours away from Sac.... Its my senior year and im scared. I dont want tonleave and i dont want to be sepreated from my friends... Im scared itll break me and my boyfriends relationship.... Im scared ill go back into deep depression and have even worse anxiety than i do now... Im just scared.
I also learnedtoday that a "friend" of mine is a total bitch and has been saying shit about me for four years. I got proof from multiple people now, not just the original person, my bff. I feel really fucking betrayed. Ive noticed this all about her trying to take me away from my bff cuz they hate each other now after being bffs sonce middle school and i try to split my time between them but i sit next to this girl in my first amd sixth hour and i really cant believe someone who i laughed with and connected with would call me "stupid" "annoying" and say "please come back" to my face then turn around and say "im glad shes fucking gone i hate her" to ONE OF MY BFFS WHO IS LIKE A FUCKING SOSTER. She told me today after school amd i got this rage in my stomach and after we parted she texted me asking how inwas and that she didnt mean to blurr it out bc she knows i still consider this girl a friend despite what i knew before now amd i really honestly am upset but im glad she told me bc i dont want to keep fake friends in my life. I really thought i was done with them but here comes another one... I really appriciate with my friend did amd i know she isnt fake im pretty sure. This girl i trust woth a lot.. My bf even said to keep my distance from the other girl util she gets the hint and tomorrow, ill probably be super distanced feom everyone besides my two closest friends and my bf. Im gonna be studyin with my bf after school and honestly i wont be surprised it i have a breakdown.... I just wish everything will work out and i can stay... I dont want to move.....
