Cindrella In Jeans(Friends,Boys,Highschool, All Included)

#7.1

Lol... I wish I could see your face now by the way, I just lied.  Not about a haunting past but about drug dealing & gang leader thing.

What happened was: I met the badass Greek God and we started dating a few years ago. After a while everything  seemed to go smoothly texts talks calls. But it was too good to last. One day it just hit me like a brick that I was falling for him. That was the day everything got shattered.  Whatever I do I was never able to forget the scene infront of me. I walked in all happy and cheerful and I saw Chris kissing Miranda. As though his life depended on it. I lost it I went up to him and asked him for an explanation. Yea pathetic. When he told me it was all a fake show he put up to humiliate me and destroy my reputation and bring down the walls around my heart I had enough of listening. That's when I introduced my heels to his face.

I lost my mind and that's when the panic attacks started. Well due to my wonderful brother, Chris was beaten to pulp and had run for his life. And what I did later is what I regret. I didn't stop at that. I stalked Miranda and when she found her true love. And stopped her slutty ways for him I was actually surprised. So I decided to make her life a living hell. And guess who that amazing guy, for whom even Miranda was ready to change for!?
 
   Yup Damon. I wrecked her relationship.  Made him fall for me and ruined her dream. So that is the part I truly regret. I made and enemy,  lost love, forgot my morals, actually went down to her level to beat her. But however, Damon became my best friend. As you'd think what kind of a guy is he to be friends with the girl who broke his heart. Well to begin with he understood that I was mentally and emotionally hurt. He knew I was too stubborn to say anything related to heartbreak and I would never ask for help in these situations. He was who I turn to when Ed was not around. I was put in therapy and other support groups for my addiction to alcohol and some rare drugs. It was a hard time for me. Seeing that your whole relationship was not a bit true and also you're parents not around to soothe you. Ed at college feeling like others life was more than perfect while yours is falling apart. So I took to alcohol to numb the pain and the bad memories. Later drugs came into the picture. I was an overall mess.
        Then Ben came along and I actually strived to get rid of the remaining addiction. And with the help of my girls and Damon,not to forget Ed or Ben, I did recover.  Yes it was pretty traumatic experience. And the panic attacks had considerably reduced,  but now they seem to have a triumph return along with their friend, nightmares.

Now you know all about it and clearly is been more relieving to talk about it. To tell people, to express your thoughts and opinions. Ben knows and he's been real sunshine in my darkest days.

That's why I need him desperately in my life.....
     
         Atleast that's what I thought......