Yet another day has occured without you. A few morning wishes ping on my phone, but that does not bother me as much as yours. Unfortunately, it is not you.
In the fresh breezing air of this morning, there creates a battle between my heart and my mind. I used to follow the voice of my heart. But this time, something messy has been created that I baffle with thought of loving you or losing you. My heart asks from me, "Is this right time to be separated? Is there any need of suffering from this pain? Now, again, you are going to change with the changing motion of life?"
My brain is stubborn, that never allows my heart to talk to my soul, it interupts,"This is the right time for this thing, because a few months later, when you both gonna face the path of separate destinations, you both would gonna finish your life. Its time to handle yourself, not to be shattered. The pain, you both are going through, will take you to the place where you should be. Don't act like a emotional fool. Changing is the law of nature. You must go with the flow of ocean that your life brings."
And look, my brain is always there to dominate my heart.
Due to my concerning behaviour, there are lots of friends of mine, who are always there for me, no matter how hard the situation is.
But I do not like to approach anyone of those, because for me: "Its my life, my problems, my complexities and it is also the things why anyone would bother about?" I think, if I am not talking to you honey, I should not talk to anyone who wants to make me feel comfortable with their talks.
I do not want to give anyone a chance to make me feel the way you did.
I just want your presence in my life, the thought of yours make me feel alive.
The feeling of looking glamorous in designer attire, straighten hair, shining eyes and glossy lips, is not there anymore. If you are not there to see me, my heart says,"Nobody is seeing you". Who will tease me,"Are you planning for a murder?" The way you looked at me, I feel like the most beautiful girl in the universe, but if you would not be there anymore, there is no meaning of how beautiful I am looking.
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Life Without Him
Non-FictionI loved someone so deeply, but i do'nt know what love is. After one year we have to get separate due to some issues. And a second without him is like hell for me..
