for an amazing person named kane
:: -jcypher
❝ dear bean stalk boy,
i'm sure you'll know who this is right off the bat, because not to be conceited or anything, but i'm the one that talks to you the most. i stay up until 1 am with you (you stay up until 5 am or longer, and when i wake up, you're still awak sometimes) i love talking to you because we talk about everything under the sun, but you need your sleep!! (i make myself seem special, omg, no) anyways, you're a great person and i didn't think we'd call each other bestfriends!! like wow!! who knew? it's funny how i was the first one to message you. honestly, i'm bad at making friends, but i had to pretend i was a natural at talking when i 'first' met you?
the time difference keeps both of us awake sometimes, and it's hard, but i cherish these times when i do talk to you. i love you very much, and take as many rests and breaks as you need because i know you get stressed. i'm just an internet friend, but i live for our conversations and height difference arguments. i love you very much and if anyone bullies you !! i will fight them !! because you're the best.
lastly, firstly, i never expected you to come back to wattpad. i thought i was gonna have to forget you and shit, and that made me sad for a long time. sometimes i feel useless talking to you because i can't give anything as much as i receive from you. but i realized in time, i do a better job of being a friend.
i know i'm sensitive, and over the past few months, your absence kinda affected me. who knew right? i'm kinda dumb. i want to apologize for being quite selfish; wishing to replace you with another person who reminded me of you too well, being angry with you, even though i know you had your reasons all too well, and lastly, for picking up shards of glass especially when you ordered me not to that one day (afterwards, you we're like a royally pissed protective father); i take a lot of people for granted, but your when you spam "jiang i lovee you, are you ok?" (each in a single letter) or "who cares what your mom thinks? i told you not to do that! your safety is the most important thing in this universe, are you hurt??" it makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
thank you for existing. ❞
yours truly, a not-so-anonymous-sender.
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this was hard to manually type, but i don't regret sending this message for an anonymous sender because it's just so beautiful. i hope we made you happy, somehow. (:
--c
