when you fall in love with a pyscho

chapter 6: Losing Sanity?

Harlene pov:I found myself now even dreaming about The Joker, god am i losing my sanity over him??! I wish i knew the answers but i didn't all i knew was i falling hard and fast for this madman,who could kill me in heartbeat. However he didn't instead he kept me breathing i started to notice men keeping an eye on me execpally two who dressed in suits.Deep down i knew he sent them to watch out for me. Ivy warned me to be careful of Joker, she seemed always concerned about me she was the only one who somehow knew what was going on she promised me she wouldn't tell anyone execpally not Wendy. I didn't want her to worry about me. But it was more i needed him he made me smile like no person in my life has ever done before.God i sounded so selfish and like a high school girl with her first crush the truth was he was  my second crush insane i know the other died in juvy he killed someone for me.(yes the boy i refer to is the one in the new 52) I never been with anyone else even had sex before, i was a virgin anyone could tell Joker wasn't ,but how much my insides wanted him more and more was , like a damn animal in heat and i bealive he saw right through that. I always stared at him as soon as i came into the room,his lips that were so kissable always smiled when i walked into the room , that hair that was electric neon green, his blue eyes with specs of green that sometimes would also have yellow in them were so intense they drew me into a trance,  how sweet he is to me  everyday making sure no one bothered me or i ate.I started bringing him food in since Arkharm said it was fine a reward to patients who were behaving, i even took on another patient part time ivy at night. I just felt like she gave good advice i felt like me and her were more friends then me being her doctor.Even the riddler would give me morning riddles i seemed the only one  who was not bothered by it, i made the prisoners happier more comfortable. Told the main doctor who worked with ivy doctor Leland to put a plant in her cell so she'd feel more comfortable even recomed after i did sessions with ivy not that many cause my main paciest was Joker so i gave leand ivy told her that she related more with woman then men.But i knew, i wanted to help Joker no matter my feelings, No matter  maybe i can help him?No I will help him!! I know i can but there  was something more to it, something i dare not to admit to even ivy but she knew. Maybe oh god im in love with him??! I'm in love with the joker! I told myself  over and over how crazy this was. As looked at myself in my bathroom mirror i fallen in love with a madman!But the side of him i saw was just the man, a human being not the killer everyone saw on the news or in the headlines.No i saw his emotions the side of him that he seemed to fear and at the same time was angry to show.I also knew deep down how confused this made him feel that  he cares about me.Maybe even started loving me is why he kissed me that day. I love him i cant believe this that im admitting i feel something for a patient.That i love a patient! I would get in big trouble for this i knew it,possibly lose everything i worked so hard for. As i got my bag and  drove to  Arkharm i didn't get a lot of sleep the night before we all knew why i didn't get enough sleep the night before. It was cause of mistah j all i thought of was him now every second of every day he was on my mind . When i punched in and went to session room to see him i felt my heart beating through my chest every time i was near him, damn it why me??!Weave been seeing each other for weeks now.it became what seemed so normal to see him. I always saw Joker smile when he saw me like i was his only  light in this colorless asylum,with those eyes of his god why does he have to be handsome.Why did i have to fall in love with him??

 The Joker pov:I chuckle noticing her looking at me  for a long time again .Then again she was always looking i knew that by now and for some reason i always looked back."What?" She looked down not wanting to look me in the eye.She always did this if something was wrong i knew this by now.So i tilted my head a bit looking to her wondering why did it bug me when she was upset about something?"Hey whats wrong doc?"I was concerned this wasn't right not at all at least it was not for me.As she spoke up in her actual voice which i loved to hear everyday when she walked in. It  was  showing more and more through the weeks of us talking to each other in the sessions as she spoke softly to me."I think-im falling in love with you Mistah.J ,thats why im not scared of you."She whispers  so only  i can hear so none of the guards could hear her say these words. I felt my heart beating very fast why was it beating so fast?? As she leaned in close to me, it threw me off guard for a moment,however i was leaning in close to her as close as i could.  What was with me since i meant this woman i couldn't control myself at all or my emotions for her.As our lips touch i kissed her softly but i wanted more of it?More of her touch more and i didn't know why?"What happened to being professional??"I asked her breaking the kiss after a long moment , she looked at me as she put her hand on my cheek."It stopped mistah J when i met you."It felt less like a session now  didn't feel like she was my doctor.She told me a lot about herself things she liked.She was so opened to me but for some reason i didn't mind hearing it. In truth i told her more about myself, then anyone ive ever meant before. I trusted her which scared me the most and made me angry i let someone under my skin her of all people.

Harlene pov: He just stared at me and looked at me then said without even blinking, which i didn't even know was possible. "You know Harley i sometimes hear you talking to your self you hear voices like i do don't you??"I was shocked he herid me must of been the other day or something, but how did he hear me??"Don't worry I wont tell a soul doll. I rather you not wind up in here."I smiled blushing i couldn't deny it any longer he cared for me and i cared for him. I finally spoke after a long minutes of us not talking."I got you something Mistah J" Reaching into my pocket,i bought him a stuffed kitty cause he always told me i was cute like one. He asked in his usual raspy voice that i learned to love , i loved everything when he spoke to me."What you got there??" I giggled lightly to him and took out the small plush kitty i got for him."I got you a kitty!"He looked at it then me for a moment before he spoke again."So,thoughtful listen Harley i need you to do me a favor?" I nodded quickly, i would do anything to help him i cared about him, no i loved him!"Yeah sure anything-I mean uh yeah." He chuckled as always i started to love his laughter it made me want to laugh along with him, made me want to smile every day of my life."I need a machine..gun." Suddenly it felt like time stopped around me and him like everything stopped. "A...machine gun?" He nodded giving me a smile nodding his head while his silver caps showed."Do you want to be with me or not?"He was testing me the fact of the manner is would i pass this test he was giving me ?? Or would i fail terribly at it?He whispered in my ear a name and address, of one of his  men so i would have help he must not want me to get hurt if things go wrong. "His name is Rocko. He is one of my men tell him your name and say that i sent you. Tell him its time, make sure you bring the machine gun  for me sweets.With you they'll be sneaking in you only have to give them the guns." I nod in agreement was i really gonna do this for him??"Promise me something?"I  look down to him now standing up about to leave the room."don't kill Wendy.."Joker looked at me softly his eyes looking straight at me."Ah OK consider it done sweetheart."I quickly left the room, I just...admitted I loved him now was gonna set him free just so i can be with him? Well its not romeo and Juliet no its better then that.

 The Joker pov: It worked! My plan worked down to every last detail,however  that feeling i got when she said she loved me made me happy??What the fuck?! I held the stuffed toy she gave me now in my cell.I was growing too attached to her, far too attached to her. It scared even me i put the toy in my pocket so the guards would not notice she gave it to me .She made me feel alive again! Something no one has done well no woman since,my past.I hope she can do this and doesn't chicken out on me!I hate to lose my new toy such a pretty little thing she was it be shame to kill her.My plan worked,of course it did my mind through was unsure weather to keep her through or just kill her and be done with these damn feelings i felt toward her!